Born and raised in Florida.
I have published 18 non-fiction paranormal books.
I see goth and paranormal as one thing.
I don't see it as a fashion but as a place where everyone goes eventually when they are tired of chewing bubble gum, thus attraction to it shows a certain maturity.
I am 5 miles from the Gulf of America, LOL, just south of Sarasota.
I had an NDE in 2008 and I wasn't ready for that. Been working on a video game using Unreal Engine, its multiplayer with a goth setting/d&d setting and that is a full-time job. I am not above getting involved in a serious relationship with the right person. I am not shy but because of the NDE I have lots of paranormal stuff around me all the time, never know what's gonna show up next.
Its seems we are getting close to some sort of conflict with Brics, China, Russia and Inida. It feels like just before WW2 when we cut Japan off from oil and then shortly after they attacked.
That would be great if anyone is interested in getting a free copy of my game to be a play tester, it does require windows to run, but not major specs, let me know.
I go to a cemetery near my house and it's a very small town so it's a very small Cemetary but I have captured EVP's there and I recorded them on video to show its not staged or fake, but I also have lots of video with nothing on them.
I have always been fascinated with old gothic/haunted places and after the NDE I understand why.
I dream of a old gothic castle in England or Ireland or even Scotland and sip wine by the fire waiting for the sun to set. We are in a point in history that the medieval times are romantic or attractive but perhaps in a thousand years people will long to be in our time. They will think, If only I could be around when the internet first arrived it would be so gothic and romantic. I recently worked at an animal shelter and what I learned is lots of people hit racoons and opossums in their car, but not very many Florida panthers at all. Any lots of fisherman catch pelicans or perhaps its, injure pelicans by catching them.
The saying "Hindsight is 20/20" is certainly true, after the NDE everything made so much sense, not saying it was all correct but simply I could see thru it all, and then after some years in that state, I realized what "hindsight" actually meant relative to what happened to me. I have meet some great NDE'rs in the years since and they all went out much rougher than I did, most are drownings, car accident and electrocutions. Its hard not to feel sorry for them because when one goes out rough, we have no sense of time, so one tends to relive it over and over and they have their life but they relive it over and over, so they are multitasking on a paranormal level. I went out very peacefully so I do not relive it over and over. One female was at a red light and a car hit her car from behind and it snapped her neck and when we talk on video conference after a few minutes she always puts her hands around her neck as if she is trying to put her neck back into alignment or back into place. She is exactly like the movies where the ghost is forever trapped in that moment of trauma when they died. I have this thought that I must help her or comfort her but in reality nothing is wrong, she is like that forever because that is how she went out. Some are very angry of course and I can relate considering all of us tend to have unfinished business. On one level, its long periods of no sense of time so one thinks very fast and of course one is not naturally supposed to be trapped in their body, so it's like trying to contain a storm in a bottle.
The living at first seems like someone one has never encountered but slowly that turns into people who seem to be very slow mentally, and that is because of the concept "relative to the observer". They are not slow they are just still living. They are no dumb they just can see thru everything. It quite a psychological event sometimes.
So about two months after my NDE I was alone except for my live-in girlfriend and out of the blue, having never done it before, I just started writing about what I was aware of. I was writing so much and so fast I neglected my eating and drinking, and slowly after 18 months and 18 novels worth of books, I was in very bad shape health wise. I had to go through some major change in order to break the cycle of just sitting at a computer typing 80 words a minute everyday from dawn til late in the evening. My mind was not registering what and NDE actually meant, and with no sense of time, I was literally just starving and writing. I was fortunate enough to have the ability to publish each book each month when they were finished so it made a nice diary record of the first 18 months. My intuition was telling me to do these thing's but it didn't make sense at the time but now it not only makes sense I am so glad I did that. Even writing this attempting to explain the first 18 months I am leaving so much out. There was a girl NDE'r I speak with and she was out in the ocean swimming and got caught in an undertow, and knew she was going to drown, and she said
"I decided to just go under and take a deep breath and get it over with. I was alive and went under and took a deep breath and then I was more alive." And it's astonishing how accurate she was in explaining what it is really like. I didn't come up with that way to explain it, which indicates how all the NDE'rs are really individuals and everyone has some value because they all see through every thing but they also see things other NDE'rs don't, so we combine our "pictures" and make this huge map collage the living call the paranormal. There are about 50 million of us on the planet and that's about .625% of the population. Since the living tend to have ambiguity issues as to whether we are genuine, the saying from a movie plays in my mind, "Such a misallocation of resources." - 4-17-25 - 6:00 PM EST
