heyy there to whoever might be reading this.. my names brad an im a sweet faithful honest respectful trustworthy loyal guy.... i have been to hell and back numerous times.. i been mentally abused alot.. ive always been too confused with s**t to leave the person.. in the end id get hurt then left in misery alone.. u must know i have ptsd from it all and have flashbacks every night around 7 pm which is wen my most recent abuse occurred.. i would come home from work and upon entering the person i thought loved me would scream at me bout the stupidest s**t... it got sooo bad at one point that i got soo messed up on it all that i punched myself in the face a few times... now every night around 6 pm i get a beer and smoke a cig to ease the strength of the flashbacks .. THERE ARE TIMES IT DOES GET OUT OF HAND AND I START ZONING THEN HEAD INTO A MIDSET BLACKOUT WHERE I DONT KNOW WAT I AM DOING OR SAYING... but every day is a new day and the best thing to do is go day by day hmu