My names Anysa, and I’m just one of those girls that sits in her room, turns her speakers up loud and over thinks the bad things that’ve happened in life.. I don’t get out much nor do I socialize so it’s part of why I’m on here I guess. I’m a very quiet, shy yet outgoing and open-minded girl. I enjoy skateboarding once in a while or sit in my room and play guitar (and write lyrics), I love to write in my own personal journal..my mom says it’s weird but I do it anyways.. I don’t talk much, I’m not a talker although I am a thinker. Have you ever been heartbroken? And I dont mean by getting dumped. I mean hearing something that hurts you so bad that you can hear your heart crash to the floor, like the sound of a falling glass or plate. All your dreams and aspirations crushed. My heart is broken. My dreams are crushed. My hope is gone and I have no will to live. I work so hard. I dream so much. I put all my heart, soul, and strength into my future and who I want to be and what I want to do. Still, I have gotten no where. Its the worst feeling to see people who dont even want it as much as I do, get it all. Every time I look in the mirror, I know I will never be good enough. That’s honestly what I think every day.
Just so you are aware, I am a self-harmer, I do cut, and I am ashamed of it.. I hate myself, personally. I don’t know why I am even bothering to waste my time writing all of this because I know I won’t have any luck in finding anyone, I doubt myself waaay too much which is horrible but what can I do, yknow? And that’s what im afraid of. Not being enough. Not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough.. Anyway, sorry for that depressing paragraph of nothing. -.- I’m 18, I turn 19 in June. :3 I can keep up an interesting conversation and keep it goin’ for a while, I’ve been through a s**t load of stuff but, I’m sure all of us have! I understand what it’s like to hate yourself, to feel alone, and you know what? If you ever once thought about suicide or tried to commit suicide and failed, and you are here till this day, I’m so f**king proud of you. Okay?
I know it feels horrible to wake up depressed in the morning. I know. I’m always here, for anyone at any time.. Like I said, I do have a good personality, or so I’ve been told, I try I guess. :3Uhmm, shoot me a message then?
I dunno what else to say.. 
