Compelled to write something... Oh joy.
First things first: I am not here to date, i am taken and happy in my relationship, and I don't really owe you an explanation as to why I am here either. But I will humor you anyway: I was encouraged by my boyfriend to be active online and try to make friends (yes, guys too) and yes, he suggested altscene since this is where we met and we remained friends for 3 years before we even became a couple, so he figured it would be a good place to try. I am however not so hopeful.
I'm currently dealing with a life that to me is too overwhelming than what I am able to handle. I've lost most parts of myself little by little in the last 5 years or so, due to heavy traumas. All my interests, hobbies, dreams and ambitions have been more or less destroyed due to this, and I've left behind alot of toxic people that has been the main cause of all this. That includes pretty much all family members as well as friends, which is why i've come to the conclusion that for me it's simply just better to be friendless. I've put up a good fight, but my c-PTSD, depression, severe anxieties, ADD and autistic burnout is really getting the best of me. It's not easy to live in a world that demands you to be a neurotypical when you're not.
But hey, atleast i'm still here.
Oh well, here goes nothing, as they say.
I still have humour though, believe it or not, sometimes even the self-deprecating kind. You may or may not be too daft to detect it though. I especially like dry, dark and british humour the best.
The End of the F***ing world was epic.
