seeking a 35 - 45 year old women gothic tomboy style who loves the music i like & a gamer
I love British women (from London U.K.) and i love Japanese women to
looking for a serious relationship
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i got one tattoo no piercing
i come from a broken home (my mom and dad divorced since i was 5) been through a lot growing up as it got worst: since i was 13 my mom put me in a military school. it f**ked me up in the head (i say took my innocence away. made me a low life (gangbanging, graffiti and smoking weed and racist) i was bullied non stop (it was racially) like i was a target to them. i told the principal/staff in the military school they never did nothing about it. i told my mom she would believe them and not me (as i tell her the truth and they tell my mom a fake story) so the bulling continued after and since i was still in the military school for almost a year or so. after i got out. i was in a regular middle school later. till i turned 14 i threw my life away. (i was getting in to trouble) while at it my mom met a guy she pick over me. once i was 16 to 17 my mom my mom started beating be and one time when i got suspended from school. my mom told her boyfriend and after he got home he tells me as he threatened me to beat me to death to put me in the hospital. as my mom heired and didn't say or do anything but denied it. showed she choose him over me. at 17 just turning 11th grade i lost my mind i got arrested. my mom didn't care. even if i got locked up. she wanted to get rid of me (like i was a accent to her). even at the times. my older brother would bully in front of my mom and she wont tell him nothing either. so far since 2020 from to the 4th time i was being harassed by random junkies (drug users) my mom wouldn't care (or any one else like i don't matter to them any more) or my older brother would blame it on me claiming i'm hanging with these junkies. last in 2021 i was on a city bus. some guy try to stab me. and no one cared either not even asking me if i'm ok. some family i have.
January 2025: i've been upset with my family. i feel abandoned by them.
i was trying to go to my niece's sweet 16 party. even though my mom and sister invited me and i was told my step brother was gonna pick me up. and he never picked me up. me and my brother would fight personally as family (he mostly would pick on me for no reason or he will take his anger out on me (blaming me) we hate each other like that. most of all. he'll talk about wanting to kill my dad (me and my step brother we came from different dads. i address him as my step brother) so since and he disrespect a friend of mine who passed away (he don't know) back in 2012. since that: family or not he's dead to me. all i know he rather have it be him, my sister and my mom as family and leave me out of the family. (again and correction: my step broth and my step sister are from the same dad. and i'm the only child from my dad) trust me. my mom dose not even care how he treats me either. she lets him pick on me and she loves him more then me.
SO that same night. i went out drinking
i hate living in a group home. it's 10 times bull s**t i can't get my own house. my moms excuse to it (if i get my own house i'm gonna get a roommate) i guess to her buying you own house or apartment now adays is a group home to her. but if that what my mom want and it makes her happy. i'll suffer for her as she steals my SSM from me. if i try to take her to court she gonna play the victim (she should of let me die in the hospital as i was a baby and take the money) wish i could live a nonmale life and be happy but no. i'm treated like i'm not part of my moms family any more. now living in a city where i have no one (no family at all)
like "what did i do for all this to happened to me. i just wanted to have a good life BUT NO!"
