I have been depressed for years and loney and bored and i was born with brain damaged and i have got a medical issue at helps me stop seeing thing at are not there and i almost die when i was born and then to school to college the jack and paul would always add me or kick me from the xbox chat multiple times and jack would make fun of the way i look and make fun of my family and he would call me a mongo all the time and he made fake xbox accounts of my family and me and paul recorded the videos of jack making fun of me and he was laughing because jack was making fun of me and jack would also make fun of dead people and he was very racist to people aswell and then my dad who was a alcoholic and would smoke cigarettes my dad hit me when i was little kid i was about 4 or 6 something like that but anyway so i came down the stairs one night and he is playing around with samurai sword so i go over to him just see what he is doing and he almost cut off my head with the sword and then it was a movie night at day so my dad said to me i am going to put on grudge the horror movie and at movie almost scared me for life and because of what they did i can't sleep normally anymore and i can't cry normally anymore or think properly anymore and because of that i started to lose my sanity and rock back and forward on the bed and started to hear voices talking to me and then i started to talk to myself and mumble to myself and sing to myself and i was screaming for help and then one night i was trying to sleep i blackout and go into the bathroom and i pick up a small knife and i go down the stairs with it and i am at the front door of my family's house and i was struggle to get the door open because i wanted to end my life but my brother stop me and i also struggle with money and 2019 to 2020 my papa passed away of cancer
