Mysterious like darkness mistery graveyards moon dark music misty fog goth music rock metal movies snack food s*x is very urgently a need for various reasons to the being of is essential thing it's a passionate thing of sensual feelings people need to bomb they need to connect in Rachel why but mentally physically passionately the souls need to Bond and like we connect with each other you know you found someone that's what you you feel it you know you before in the past life or it's like you're the same on a mental and emotional spiritual level on the same kind of plane for me that's very important in any kind of relationship or sexual thing I think that when people aren't sexual it's a poison that the body in you know you form of poison overtime I'm where you were coming bit depressed bored and your soul the spirit the life in you drive up and you was on boarding a boring person for me to feel alive is very important to Bond and connect with someone otherwise I have hating that person I am not getting bored of that person and I don't connect and I don't feel nothing for them this is why for me is sexual relationship with a person on move it is very important I have recently met someone and he's so boring it's unbelievable not only is he 21 stone 2bls in weight and that's not me being shallow or narrow-minded I was willing to overlook that until he didn't seem for 6 days and would like didn't have s*x with me in the morning and didn't have s*x with me and then didn't sleep together for or four nights and a minute his two kids go back to his mother because she has two kids at the weekends and his mother of his kids have some manager Friday afternoon he's had the whole week to sleep with me right have s*x with me and he hasn't started sleeping in his kids bedroom and last night slept on the floor downstairs and that's not normal but he has had to stick to this and tell a bad back and his foot hurt him and it's going numb but I think it's because he's got 21 stone 2 pounds to carry and diabetes but I don't want to be with someone who is a Christian I hate that over over over obsessed Christian Fanatic obsessive behaviour and he plays Christian songs that make me very easy and comfortable and makes me just feel and relaxing and that would it really does and then he goes on about God I can't stand it and then he said he's scared of paganism and witches and witchcraft I called him a pudsey and told him to man up and stop being a big baby we got past the conversations of I only hurt people if they hurt me on my family on the animals I don't practice and left them and need healing or help or protecting although in trouble and it's something that I love or care about I find you got through to the dumb fat idiot in yet could you not that bright or clever but there you go he's just useful to me at the moment I like being waited on and made breakfast and bought things and he dose all that feeds dog gets dog treats and has bigger garden I want a goth alternative in to vampirism s*x *****ism and magic viking saxon suits me but he's Christian I'm just using him until I meet a goth a pgan a vampire like me with long hair pic and s*x mad he s*x drive is 1 out if 10 he can jog on seriously I might as well be with someone my dad's age boring .X