i have gone over it ain and again in my head so here it is. im a 31 year old guy im huge nerd im overweight due to health conditions but despite my better efforts im still alive, ive made two attempts on my own life, i use to cut but that didnt help anymore. ive got abandonment issues, trust issues, issues with assertiveness. the only issue i dont have is anger never really been an angry person i dont like yelling and i dont like when people are mad at me. ive been used by people i thought cared about me and now i just dont care anymore. about two years ago something in my mind broke and i just stoped, i dont cry i dont laugh i dont feel much of anything anymore cause whats the point. i just want to go through the day and not find a new problem to tackle. if you want to talk message me if you dont thats fine too im not really anyones type never have been im just that guy.