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🎲 Update as of 23 of September I'm quite bored and every time I log in I feel like falling asleep big time 🎲 So with that said I'm leaving my account as is on a platter 🎲 Once you read my intro my contacts are below 🎲 But remember there is so many people out there now days with a act without kindness or any compassion at all 🎲 So remember out there find a act of compassion and kindness to understand me 🎲 I know that's a fleeting task but not everyone is dancing on sunshine which many assume my life is all act and that's fine think what you must but at the end of the day I had compassion and a act of kindness to know me on a personal level hence my profile is creative and not lackluster 🎲
🎀 Friends only for now and please for the love of Loki. Hel. The Frost Giant Realm and Cloud District. Please stop calling me cutie and pretty. Also please stop saying your eyes look so pretty. Can you send me more pictures of your face? Please, you sound like a serial killer. Please keep in mind my profile is a 15-30 minute read. If you're not interested in people telling things about themselves vs their profile. Then close out of my pro and go to someone else. You're not forced to read this in one sitting and you just assumed that yourself. No repeats. If you ask anything about myself listed on my profile I will copy and paste that information. But any comments flirting at me will be ignored. Also what is people's problem with me asking me to see their pets? The person gets so mad and just says look at my profile page when all I'm asking for is a new photo of their pet because their pet is adorable. Like damn take some f'ucking Midol and if your personality is a tree stump or rock or brick or a fence post you and I won't get along at all. Take a joke and don't be serious all the time. That is so annoying! Looking for people to play Runescape with as well 🎀 For people that remember me here back in the past I got my life straightened out, however things are government controlled so I really can't make things happen for me but everything is in place just time consuming 🎲 I left and deleted my last account because of bullies and harassers 🎀 But I guess that is how low you will go to boost yourself esteem making fun of someone with a legit mental health issue 🎀 My location is selected at random so that way I can keep my personal information and I.D. safe 🎀 As I've had some past ''issues'' here with users stalking me 🎀 A lot of people thought I suffered from psychosis and schizophrenia on here 🎀 This is what I was diagnosed with I've MDD and PTSD w/o which means without psychosis/schizophrenia and I do have more more mental disorders listed on this profile within this profile page about me and oh welcome to the Matsugane Family and if I'm logged out for awhile of time you can find my contacts somewhere on my album and I do have more photos as well you silly gooses and yes still looking for friends only right now thanks and if you add me on my contacts need to know who you're somehow or a mugshot of your pro or who knows what else and also taking a break next week not sure when I will be back so add me there and for now enjoy my profile and on my photo album there is where my contacts are message me there because I probably won't be online to check your message here so just click on my photo album because I've many photo albums not just one but you will see a screenshot of my social medias that I use and their username and you can add me on either one as all notifications are turned on etc and with that said I really don't care what contact you add me on from my album and one more thing my sleep pattern is pretty weird as well so your contact add might be delayed or something etc 🎀
🎀 Missing , Presumed Death is still my favorite quest still till this day and guess why 🎀
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🌠 Grand bull $hit I deal with and if you don't like someone getting free stuff from the government or trying to get benefits then that is one cue not to read any further. Why? Using your tax dollars of course from what I was told and I know people have a HUGE ISSUE WITH THIS. Another cue is you reading my psychological exam and you don't want to do that and if you're wondering a reason why I had to take one that is because I had to take one to see if I approved for the benefits if this is a problem then don't keep reading and if you're wondering why I had to take one well here in the U.S. people have abused free stuff from the gov such as faking a mental illness or faking IQ levels and so forth now everything requires medi proof and final cue for you to leave my profile and also not only SSI wanted to see my medical records of my mental state and IQ state well Workforce also required them. Also just to give you another cue to leave here you go. My young prince is 10 and don't be inboxing me that you hate kids and you still want to talk to me and I think you guys really need to be educated not every kid on the planet is a hoodlum and me as a parent I believe kids act and repeat what their surroundings are and I don't want anymore kids due to my physical health failed after I had mine by c-section so please don't inbox me saying you hate kid when I never inboxed you and I just viewed your profile only and also my dad doesn't allow me to call people unless that person is SSI/Workforce/Family related. Why? Well something happened in 2017 and that's all you need to know for now and yes I'm working on Medicaid right now 🌠
Update as of September 28:
🌠 So here is what I was diagnosed with and if you forgot from the above sentence this was because I need medical record proof if I qualify for any of the services from Tri County and Workforce etc. If I got denied that would mean no assistant help or a caseworker etc. I've This is pretty lengthy because I asked for the chief complaint etc and a chief complaint is another thing for a doctor's complaint and idk why the f'uck Tri County couldn't put that instead of chief complaint. Doesn't make sense to me lmao. Also the IQ score I was given that isn't a judgement score that is based on because I can't do math or English. I know that is unfair to give someone a poor IQ due to poor education. Yes I understand that is unfair and unjust and I also know that a IQ of 79 doesn't make me feel less of myself. So the reason why I shortened this was because I made three paragraphs explaining what Workforce is and by chatting with people I found out one thing. There are several of you here that know what that is + some have a similar thing just called different in your country. So anyways I made a pointless thing about three paragraphs about Workforce as I thought not many knew what that meant. So with that said I will explain this in a shorter term for Tri County. Tri County is a behavior and mental health center. This isn't a mental ward. This place helps people with behavioral problems such as medication, counseling, therapy, psychological exams and SSI workers and Workforce. However I will explain that when I go back in 2020 for a psychological exam to see if I approved help for SSI and gather a caseworker there to help me appeal SSI. I had no awareness after I left in 2017 due to a very rude worker there that Tri County helps with SSI services and also helps with Workforce etc. So basically from 2017 through 2020 I was left clueless that Tri County offered those services. But somewhere in the early start of 2020 I went back to Tri County which I don't remember for what reason why I went back to Tri County and there I saw a pamphlet on a table somewhere in the building and in the pamphlet the company can help with SSI for something and I saw a pamphlet there. Anyways I want to make an update for people after reading my Tri County psychological exam. I guess SSI saw something different in me and I got denied as of September 26th. So now I've to appeal my case again but lucky I got my Tri County caseworker that can help me appeal my case. Just the lady at Tri County that works with SSI has to get my paper in the mail first before she can appeal my case. I can't tell you how long this will take. I can tell you from what I was told by a few people working from Tri County that most clients by the second or third time will get approved. So that's where I'm in life right now. Any updates on Workforce? Only one thing: my dad is awaiting a call for an interview to see what I qualify for. So I qualified for the first round which was for turning in medical paperwork to see if I'm disabled. So the next step is to interview then wait for another final approval. If I get denied, my caseworker from Tri County can step in and battle things out. Now I can see why people tell me getting government funding is a living nightmare. This has been a living headache for my dad and myself and more so made me really depressed when my dad told me I got denied. You guys are probably thinking why do you want SSI and a part time job? I thought you couldn't do that? According to what Tri County told me I'm able to do both. However my dad and the rest of my family members refused to help me find a job online from home. Everyone in the family except my sister because she just flat out told me no because let's face the facts my sister is 6 years apart from me. She lives 2 hours and 48 minutes away from me or longer if traffic. As a sister which my sister suffers from, M.S. shouldn't be responsible for taking care of me knowing what stress does to her M.S. Also my sister's job isn't to take care of my son either. But back on subject my dad and his sisters told me I can click on anything online and find a job that way haha. Yeah let me click on a random website with my information yeah cool that's totally safe and the correct way to find a job. Not! The only credit I can give my aunts is that one of my aunts who is the organizer of the family is helping me obtain Medicaid because I signed a consent form so she can fill out the application for me. What will I do if Workforce can't find me a job online? Well I can say one thing: finding a job anywhere is going to be difficult with a diagnosed IQ score of 79 in the first place. Lisa also told me which is my caseworker for Workforce goes what are you going to do if you can't get your GED? I said over the phone as my diagnosis report was over the phone I said well what if GED doesn't accept a 504 plan and I failed math/had to be bypassed in math and I failed the high school essay test over 4 times what then? She didn't say anything but okay....and went onto the next question. Anyways with my high paranoia and my mental disabilities that I've. I would only be okay working in a small work area. No grocery stores. No busy or packed areas I can't handle and I would go in my shell and start to panic in my mind. If you guys are wondering, my dad will not let me get groceries from home. How often do I go out per week? Only once if my dad/cats in the house need something otherwise I stay in the house till I need my two week groceries. When the grocery store starts to get piled with people my mind panics and I want to be out. But back on the denial part. I got denied the first time because SSI says due to my mental disabilities and my ankle problems are ''limited'' so basically what SSI is saying I can still work with my limited disabilities. However I simply don't believe this at all and it sounds bogus. Sounds like to me SSI was like let me just slap an excuse on my denial paperwork and say she is ''limited'' so I don't know what will happen next when my dad wants Medicaid to give me 100 percent full coverage when I'm still waiting on Medicaid approval. Because the only next step is to go to different doctors. My dad also won't pay for dental neither will my aunts. He says I've to pay for my dental. Well my dad is in a huge rude awakening when he will find out Medicaid will not pay for every single little thing. But back on my denial. If SSI says I'm ''limited'' wouldn't that mean me finding a job will be difficult? Yes I'm aware even if I'm ''limited'' a job can't deny me of my disabilities as that is against the law in the first place. But I think SSI didn't see me as that severely disabled as Tri County did. Anyways back on subject what is wrong with my foot and ankle? My Pigeon Toed/ Bird Feet/Intoe didn't revert back to normal. I was hatched this way. My parents refused surgery due to a very poor success rate. Dance didn't work with special shoes put on for years and I did take my braces off because I didn't like the bulky feel. For some reason my foot never turned back to normal. My dad needs to wake up and smell the coffee as well. No job is going to hire me saying oh my ankle and my foot hurts and I need to get the pressure off my foot and ankle every 30 minutes and I can't stand for a long period of time. But hold up now you guys are like wait what? Why are you trying to get SSI and work at the same time? I was told from Tri County that I can get SSI and work part time like Monday, Wednesday and Friday if I wanted to. That's what Tri County told me. So why would the place lie to me? The only job I can think of working is an office job organizing things or printing out papers. Working at the animal shelter cleaning out litter boxes or feeding them or taking care of the animals. Online job with stock fees or organizing. Learning graphic designs for customers. I did tell SSI I can't work as a grocery store cashier or anything. I can't handle the mayhem in the store. However my dad doesn't believe me when I told him my caseworker from Tri County told me 🎲 Not the SSI worker there at Tri County told me I can only work so many hours/days when on SSI and my dad is like I'm not believing that! I will call the SSI office myself whenever you get SSI! I walked in my room. I didn't want to deal with the arguing at all 🎲 Speaking of SSI, you know what is funny? When I went to my first exam on June 11 the SSI department sent me to a physician not a foot doctor. Which makes no utter sense to me at all. Why I don't understand is the doctor only wanted me to X-ray my ankle and I'm like why are you doing this to me? I said my ankle hurts and my foot and near my joint of my knee hurts he goes no we're doing your ankle only. My caseworker said that SSI can send you to a foot doctor or ankle doctor but that all depends on what SSI wants to see. Anyways you're probably wondering did I worsen the condition? Probably so I've forced to walk strait for years and that I had probably put stress on the bone cartilage and waring that down. Collagen has heled ''EASED'' now remember the keyword ''EASE'' some of the tissue where I'm not stiff anymore yes I still have slight pain but that's better than having very stiff ankles. I'm soon going to try Red Clover as that is a high potent anti inflammatory. I also need to start taking calcium tablets or maybe taking purple vegetable capsules. But back on the subject I can't give you an estimate of how long this will take and I sure and Hel hope not this will take till I'm 30 years old and I really hope I don't need a disability lawyer either. Also just like Tri County has told me my caseworker there not the SSI one but she told me SSI wants you to battle to see how far you will go to get that once a month check that all there is to it. If SSI sees you don't want to struggle and get that once a month check that is one less person off their shoulder. Which makes total sense and she is right. That's all the government cares about is to see how bad you struggle and how bad you want your free benefits and speaking of denial I will share my next experience here in life which I also got denied because my health issues and if you think what the SSI did to me was unfair and my IQ wasn't fair well just wait till you read this 🌠
To ice this on the cake guess what? I also been denied as a person by my school.
I wasn't really confident in telling anyone. Let alone because I thought the behavior was inhumane. But this is what happened why I never finished high school and was force to quit. I can't help this is long okay? There is no way I can shorten something up in less than a few sentences. This is the best I can of my ability to summarize what happened. I don't know no other way to fix this shorter.
🎂 However this is super hard to believe but I still can't believe the SAME SCHOOL I went to as my sister they would tell me to quit or finish in person. Knowing damn well I wasn't physically well after my C-section. I was emotionally and mentalis spent. I couldn't keep going on. But nope the doctor/school DIDN'T EVEN CARE ONE LICK about that. So wrong of them not to let me finish homebound which I WAS DOING GOOD AT and according to my dad I was doing very very very WELL at and they didn't even take that in consideration? I'm sure the final choice was my C-section doctor, not the school. Yeah, the school was part of the problem but I'm sure my doctor told them NO. The school should be damned ashamed of themselves, same for them saying oh we're sorry we don't have a English teacher or room to put you in another class BULL CRAP. THAT'S ALL LIES. But for them to tell me I got two choices to continue or quit is so inhumane. My dad still till this day has grief and is highly angry that this happened he even told that to SSI/Workforce. Even more shameful/disgraceful, this school promoted a product of what poor education does to someone in all levels of a person's well being/living essence of life long crippling effects. Please don't ask me why my dad didn't fight the doctor to approve the continuation of my homebound. Don't ask me why my dad didn't do anything. I can't give you the answer and I'm not asking anyway. That would be a huge argument and he doesn't want to talk about what has happened to me in high school. Also my dad recently found out this year and last year that my bullying was worse than he thought he thought people were making fun of my legs and feet. No that is only half of what happened there was more, I told my dad as Workforce and Tri County were asking about my high school life that no the other reason was that I was made fun of my face and teeth. I was made fun of when the bell rang for the start of the school all the way till dismissal any chance I was in the hallway I was made fun of. Just think what that does to someone's mental and emotional state of well being? Not only that but physically being able to take care of yourself is healthy/hygienic. If you want to know more about this I will link you to my blogs 🎂
🎂 Will I make my son go through the same high school?
🍰 Sadly yes I don't think I can ever move out of my town I can't tell you when I will get full custody of my son. I can't tell you that if I moved out of town I'm defenseless all alone and my dad and my aunts wouldn't pick me up if there was an emergency as they're very close in town. Also there is no other high school in my town. Only GED and for juveniles. HOWEVER I WILL NOT TOLERATE WHAT HAPPENED TO ME IN HIGH SCHOOL IF HIS HIGH SCHOOL IS THE SAME AS MINE!
🍰 But there you have that. I was forced to quit because of my physical and mental health. Basically my doctor/school denied me of my needs.
🎂 My aunt recently found this out I thought she knew about this and she didn't she just went silent for a bit and said that is horrible and that's just bull $hit.
🎂 The only thing that I don't agree about my aunt is she tells me that Tri County was wrong of them to diagnosis me with MDD because she thinks MDD has to do with not being able to get out of the house and afraid of people and I just didn't keep the conversation going because of a argument.. But I know that's pretty dumb that my aunt doesn't believe I've MDD when I was diagnosed by a professional.
🍰 So basically the school what happened and I know this in my adulthood of knowledge and going through smoke and mirrors. The school couldn't handle my situation I was in. The problem was too much for them to keep continuing my final year in school. So the school basically blocked out how good I was doing in homebound and was like nope she is too much to handle we can't deal with a student like her let's get rid of her. Basically all that was lol 🍰
🍰 I think to be denied as a life essence or a vessel would make anyone's hue go pitch black permeant and people will say you will one day find a way to get over this and the answer is no my hue is 100 percent stained black I once had a silver hue with pink swirls with shards of purple but that is long gone now and the RABBIT that was once white is now BLACK 🍰
🌠 Why do people think I'm lying about my mental health etc:
🌠 Also I think why people don't believe me for my mental health is because I'm the only one in the family currently suffering from these mental disorders. According to family records there are none of these symptoms that show up on family health records. Family health issues are. Cancer. Diabetes. Heart Attack and Stroke. However my sister is the only one in the family that has M.S. and there has only been one family member on my dad's side of the family that died of the brain eating disease which was his mom. Also my sister we're a few years apart. She was full figured and curvy. Never made fun of in school. My dad states she was the top 5 in her class and was never on a 504 plan either.
🌠 Here is some things you need to keep in mind reading this report:
🌠 My DR made several grammar mistakes according to Google automatic checker for spelling and grammar. I guess A she didn't give two f**ks about doing a proof read or B she just wanted to type so fast and f**k the proofreading and type out my report and the get the f**k out of my office. Another thing is I tried my best to make this readable as when I copy and pasted this report either A browser error that I'm using or B maybe that's how things are formatted on a PDF file transferred on an about me page and things happen like that but idk. But I made a caring effort to make things readable. Also for the Depressive Symptomatology test if you want to see what questions Tri County was asking me I can pull up the PDF file on my laptop and take photos for you of the questions the doctor asked and I can send by Email. Discord. Snapchat and Instagram if you're curious. As for some reason none of the black circled dots are picked up at all. If you also need proof I was emailed by Tri County I can send that to as well.
Tri-County MHMR Services DIAGNOSTIC REVIEW FORM AXIS I: Clinical Disorders and Other Conditions That May Be a Focus of Clinical Attention ID Description Priority Begin Date End Date
MAJ DEP. D/O RECURR SEV W/O 1 10/10/2017
POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISO 2 10/10/2017
299.80 ASPERGER'S PDD, RETT'S D/O 3 06/10/2008
10/10/17 Ind meets the criteria for MDD and PTSD. Asperger's dx was from previous assesssment when inwas a child. Problems maintaining at school, at home and socially. PDD DX provided Dr Gaines
Which of the above three is the primary axis? 1 AXIS IV:
Psychosocial and Environmental Problems ID Description Priority Begin Date End Date
Economic Problems 1 10/10/2017
Primary Support Group 2 10/10/2017
Prob w/Access to Health Care 3 10/10/2017
Occupational Problems 4 10/10/2017
Tri-County MHMR Services DIAGNOSIS: MR SUPPLEMENT Current Adaptive Behavioral Level: Zero One Two Three Four Potential Adaptive Behavioral Level: Zero One Two Three Four Adaptive Behavioral Level Date 10/17/2008 (I checked number one) which is Borderline Adaptive Behavior Disorder. Just doesn't show here because I guess copy and paste isn't picking up on the dotted circle that was selected as one
Also remember on my papers it says my MDD and PTSD is without w/o psychosis disorder
Diagnosis part two yes I know this is hard to read but I'm copy and pasting from the PDF file Tri-County MHMR Services
DIAGNOSTIC REVIEW FORM AXIS I: Clinical Disorders and Other Conditions That May Be a Focus of Clinical Attention ID Description Priority Begin Date End Date
MAJ DEP. D/O RECURR SEV W/O 1 10/10/2017
POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISO 2 10/10/2017
AUTISTIC DISORDER 3 10/14/2021
BORDERLINE INTELLECTUAL FU 1 10/14/2020 IQ Score 79
(Something to learn. I was told by Workforce and Tri County that now psychologist can't use the word borderline mentally retarded anymore. So now the word retarded is replaced with borderline intellectual disability or you can just say I.D.D. * as well as if you're wondering what a 504 plan is a 504 plan back in the old days were for mentally down or slow or mentally challenged students. Also I was told I can only understand 8th grade comprehension. I also failed the high school English test 4 times. In 8th grade I had to be bypassed in Math)
IQ Test Date 10/14/2020 IQ Test Type IQ: S-B
Chief Complaint: 10/13/17 24 y/o WF seen at TCBHC for initial psychiatric evaluation. Requesting medication services to treat her anxiety and depressed mood. Psychosocial: Unemployed. One Child. Shares custody of her child with her child's father . Mother was murdered in May of this year by her significant other. He is also deceased. Depression increased since her mother's death. Client states, `' I am here to get something for my PTSD.. I have these nightmares every night `'Diagnosed with ADHD as a child. Client was taking Adderall, Straterra in the past with poor results. Diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome at age 13 years old. History of previous mood disturbances.`' I was very moody growing up `' Denies engaging in self-harming behaviors, Denies previous suicide attempts. Denies previous inpatient hospitalization .Client presents today with complaints of Nightmares `' my dreams are about being chase `' PTSD related symptoms started a few months after incident . Reports exaggerated startle response `' I hate loud noises ..the other day when we went out to eat a plate dropped and I jumped. .'' Flashbacks, negative view of herself and others,'' I always have this self-hatred for myself `' irritability Feels tense`' on edge `' Intrusive thoughts, loss of interest, Avoidance behaviors. Psychological and physiological responses to triggers. Reports Sleep disturbances `' I try to go to sleep but I have this anxiety going on. `' Reports having Racing thoughts, physical restlessness, `' my attention is bad .'' Poor focus and concentration. Feeling down most days `' just think why do I deserve this..'' Low energy, difficulty performing daily task.. Appetite is poor. Denies losing weight. Denies previous history of eating disorders. However client is underweight. Endorses thoughts of feeling worthless, hopeless, guilt about her mother's death. Frequent thoughts about death. Anhedonia. Frequent crying spells `' its more of a rage type of cry. I get so aggravated about everything. `' repowers irritability and periods of heightened energy but symptoms do not last for several consecutive days. Days inflated self-esteem , decrease need for sleep and reckless behavior. Denies SI HI or A/V hallucination and I will say one thing about Tri County back in 2017 tried to put me on medication that INCREASED my nightmares as I read the side effects carefully what bull s**t and also this medication for insomnia was to increase my appetite what bull s**t that doctor was. She didn't; care bout my needs at all she only cared about what she wanted me to believe. Anyways she wanted to put me on Remeron at 15mg and I read the gigantic long list of side effects and I'm like seriously? Also some of the side effects are shocking and some really scared me. Also after reading this medication can make you aggressive to some people but yeah if you want to read the side effects of Remeron be prepared to be super shocked. However, speaking of aggressive behavior. That's what happened with the second ADHD meds that I was put on and started with an s THAT I was put on as a kid. What are you guys trying to do? f**k me up? Drug me? Also not the one that evaluated me in 2020 but in 2017 I had a doctor extremely rude as f**k. She thought I was anorexic and rolled her eyes at me when I told her I eat 3-4 times a day. Needless to say, the reports from 2017 I never went back because of the disrespect. Also the same lady told me to be thankful that you don't have a psychosis disorder with all these mental health issues you've. But trust me if I got the same lady in 2020 as I did in 2017 I would've requested for another person. I didn't find out till 2020 Tri County offered services for SSI and Workforce until I saw a pamphlet on one of their tables when I had to go back for something. The only thing wrong about my Tri County exam is they're not understanding about as I'm older now at 28 years old my hunger level decreased but my metabolism is still burning fat for an example Stouffer frozen dinner chicken alfredo pasta and I flings out the broccoli which has 540 calories. 31 grams of fat which is 40 percent of your daily intake and and saturated fat is 11 which is 55 percent of your daily intake and I don't gain weight if my sister ate this she would've gained 10 pounds. So for them to say I eat with personal effort is true because I eat when I'M HUNGRY or my VOID growls but the false part is my app is poor is false. For some reason I'm not hunger every 3-4 hours as I was in my 20's. Something is happing to my digestive track it has nothing to do with because I don't want to eat and not once have I ever thought in my life I don't want to eat the only time I never ate good is when I was in a lot of pain and felt really bad. Just a rude lady I got in 2017 but whatever lol. For an example back in my 20's I could eat 5 plates or a half and not gain weight and be hungry within a few hours. Now as I'm older in age I can only eat one and a half plates of food or two and and a half and still feel full till night time and not within a few hours. Also I eat pasta almost everyday and I eat high carbs that also doesn't make me gain weight. That is a digestive problem for me. That has nothing to do with what I don't want to eat. My digestive track has changed as I aged. So if you want to say do I believe my report to be true. Yes, why of course just not the eating part. Also I eat at the worst times of day. Maybe that's why my digestive track is messed up besides age. I eat around 2-3 P.M. Very rarely do I wake up around 11 am or noon unless I'm required to be somewhere. Then I eat around 9:30 or 10 p.m. something then I eat before bed 3-4 A.M. I heard eating late at night is very very very very bad for you .-.
Just know I love food 🧂 Just because my intake of food degreased with my age doesn't mean I hate food 🧂 I just feel a lot fuller than normal. But come take a seat in Hell with me 🍽️ Oh I'm a very picky eater as well 🍽️
Trauma, Abuse, Neglect:10/13/17 Client presents today with complaints of Nightmares `' my dreams are about being chase `' PTSD related symptoms started a few months after incident . Reports exaggerated startle response `' I hate loud noises ..the other day when we went out to eat a plate dropped and I jumped. .'' Flashbacks, negative view of herself and others,'' I always have this self hatred for myself `' irritability Feels tense `' on edge `' Intrusive thoughts, loss of interest ,Avoidance behaviors. Psychological and physiological responses to triggers.10/10/17 Ind reports that an ex boyfriend was physically abusive. This is the boyfriend who killed ind's mother. Ind reports that she was in the house when her mother was killed. "I heard everything that happened." Reports that her ex boyfriend was killed by the police. Ind reports having vivid memories of the abuse, flashbacks, intrusive images, nightmares, exaggerated startle response, dissociation, hypervigilance, and avoids situations and people who reminded of the murder of her mother. "I am more alert and more anxious now. I am keeping an eye on things now."
Axis V: Global Assessment of Functioning (current GAF) 47
If you're wondering what a GAF scoring is I can tell you this what Google told me. GAF is to scale/rate the severity of the person's mental illness scale. If you want to know what my score is just type in Google GAF scale 47. Also before you Google because you think 47 is a high score and a GAF 47 seems like a good score. No mine was pretty bad. 47 isn't a good score. A normal GAF scaling would be 70 + which means psychological state with little to/no complication with school/work/family/social environment and behavior and isolation. So mine is a 47 which should tell you mine is below average with heavy complications in those fields.
They also took a Depressive Symptomatology test on me and I scored TOTAL SCORE (Range 0-27) 16 so me scoring a 16 according to Google terms is 16-20 = Severe depression. How did the examiner score me 16? The examiner asks a series of Depressive questions hence the questionnaire sheet being called Depressive Symptomatology testing. The GAF score is an overall summary of evaluation of my whole exam then the person will rate my mental illness severity rate there.
And also the chart doesn't work on here when I copy and paste from PDF file because there are answers that are circled with a black dot on here that don't pick up on here but I've mild Insomnia as well many people disagree with me because I go to bed at 5:30 or 6 a.m. and wake up round 12:30-2:45 P.M. just varies. The doctors labeled me that because I'm low energy all during the day and I'm super awake and hyper at night and I've to take sleep aid to fall asleep. But I'm not going to argue about this though🚿
📥 If you view my profile. Don't hesitate to send me a message and if I send you a friend request can you do this one small favor for the WOLF? Send me an inbox message and remember my social media contacts are in my album folder. As I'm not sure if you wanna talk or not. However I would rather we exchange chat on one of my social medias listed below.
📥 Warning I don't use these so you don't waste time clicking on my album 📥 FB/What is app/Telegram or any apps that is similar to What is app and Telegram and that even includes Line and also the old dinosaur app with a K. I will not download any app for you. If you don't have the contacts I listed at the start of the profile. Oh well. Not downloading anything like I said you can email me instead.
🌠 All message requests are accepted as long as you read my profile.
👹 I'm up at night like a night creature so if you're waiting 6-7 hours + for a reply I'm asleep
🚿 I would rather chat on social media and I only own three.
🚿 No creeps and no stalkers
🍯 I tend to get along with people that seem to be more artsy and whimsy and has a sense of humor 🍿 I don't think I could talk to someone that is always so serious all the time 🥧 I also love people that do any kind of art or anything like that because once every two months or something like that I like to support a small artist 🎏 Of course someone must like video games and can talk about that for hours duh 🎁 Someone that likes photography or tech savvy is cool 🛍 Must like animals and don't shop buy from an animal shelter and rescue a pet ⏳ Someone that likes literature that would be cool as well and if you're a blacksmith or a jewelry maker I wanna see what you can do ⛏
🐺 My young prince/son sense some people can't figure out what young prince means anyways he matters and so does my motherly views 👑 If you don't want me randomly talking about him or what he got for his 🎂 or Christmas then you're not for me 🦂 Also you will respect my mother morals and not degrade me because I'm a single parent and ask for inappropriate photos as well 🎩 So you respect my views as a parent or you're not for me at all.
🎀 This next tab after this sentence is all this stuff that is suppose to be read on your own free time!
🎀 I know what you're thinking. You're sharing this much personal information about your past life and current life status now? Yes 🎩 I got nothing and I mean absolutely zero about hiding anything from any of you users interested in chatting with me etc. Ask for this blog and this blog link is on my profile picture here 🚿 You must click on my profile picture to upload the albums and then click on the main picture and look at profile comments 🚿
🎀 Monster and Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto also changed my life.
🎀 My spiritual writings. Just a quick sample.
My home is Neptune
My heart soared in Jupiter
My mind is Saturn
Even though he was gone from here or yester-year I thought could the wolf grow fangs of darkness and the light? But even so he would remain the darkness that cloaked the midnight. But I even thought of yester-year I would if I could hold the knife up to you and combat you and call that love? But you see I always hold the knife to myself and I held the knife at myself but I really held the knife to the demon's beast mask. Because self liberation is the one of self goals just like the chessman you see. I wonder how many times I see myself on a throne with closed eyes dreaming of paradise and you mother. But the way I destroy myself and others is just like a pile underneath me. I'm self obsessed with myself and destroying myself. It's beautiful and I can't deny anything because I've yet to refuse self denial of one's existence but you see like the chessman says ''I can't lose I must empress the Queen even if she needs to be used'' because that is just reality dumping pawns right before the very feet of the King and perhaps the Queen steps on the pawns. But the rook you see the hidden archer but do I self target others that are close friends or a lover of mine? Or do I self target myself liberation? I can't help but to see the end without you. Toxic miasmatic love. The enthralling way of enchantment for me. Just like the spine of the bishop the most important one that should be kept true ''hidden on the bishop's blade'' because that blade is me and I hide myself with that blade. A damned snake he told me if I could hear one more thing in life is the eaten roots of the Yggdrasil Tree the screams and the roar of the serpentine. Because you see water is where I thrive where the raven drowns the feathers in a fragile state and all all I can think about is pulling out the rook in the drowned feather's of the magi's crest the ''raven'' the last of the falling eyes of the rain and the shore as the wolf jaws open and the half grown serpentine's tongue. As I hold the rook with my paws I stare at a gaze and hoping the mother snake will notice me. You see I don't care because all I want is a checkmate for myself but I understand in life I want to be drowned in you and consumed in alchemy. But you see it's just like a white hare anything can be stained ''black'' even if life isn't beautiful to me but you see what is beautiful to me is pawns just like small daggers always being held behind and twisted and holding the knife close to someone. I see myself as a unit as I always have. Self combating. That combat is destroying myself but you see mother what if I hit checkmate last? Then the bishop falls on the Yggdrasil Tree branch....fragile self and arms and spider like fingers the drowned raven looks at the Yggdrasil Tree. I'll turn you black just like my hue is black but perhaps.....checkmate isn't for certain....
🌲 So he says you damn snake the snake tongue and the wolf skull, wondering Rabbit in the evergreen forest full of smell of Juniper, the golden weaver orb fell from the trees and the cracks of the spider masked showed, there she was formed by the Black Water and for she was covered in black ooze. The hare ran in fear, for the hare started to change into black. As he formed in a water morph he stood there in the shrine next to the wheelhouse above the waterfall where Rabbit's shrine resided. He stood there waiting for his friend at the Waterfall Shrine. Having fond memories of teaching her water alchemy. For he the Rabbit transformed into a man in front of her with very long black hair sitting in the shrine. However a vision of the Abyssal showing in her beast slits that something was amidst from far North of the mountains as his father’s shrine burned down. In a rage she asked someone to hang all the wronged judged burned at the stake for she returned to Hell and her empty throne was there the King’s Robes Beelzebub covered the empty throne as Bel held the bestial cards in rage for harming her friend the Rabbit for she ran to the West feared of the East gates of Hell she shouted a auratic burst from the high clock tower of Hell. There she handed him a demonius fruit apple as he was her friend as many animals were close to him. I looked at his head full of curved horns and two heads of animals and he grinned at me with very razor sharp fangs. You defended my homeland and rebuilt my temple with the enchantments of the Abyssal. Your offer is my protection from those nasty reptilians. You owe me not only your life in Hell but all I ask is for you to run free with “SPIDER”
▽ People live in a sin called vanity. Self obsessed over looks and what someone looks like. But that's when you know you're fragile yourself. Preying on the weak and those that seem weak like yourself. You think looks are the reason why you chat with someone. Which you fail to understand looks can easily be shattered. You also fail too see like me with these wolven eyes of mine that the best torture you can do someone is shatter their self image and watch their psyche crack and their vessel ''burst open'' how beautiful. What should matter most is ideals and the will of the true wolves and Loki and ''OTHERS.'' But it also doesn't matter what size the wolf is. As well as even if you're a small wolf or a little wolf or a small wolf mother as long as your ideals are recognized by Loki and keep his will close to you and your heart making your heart and will intact with purity then all isn't lost. Nothing but cornered rats. Wouldn't matter if I was a wet little wolf mother looking at the storm and sea the last thought I would have is of ''YOU.'' and Loki's will and feeling of Loki's only daughter the only thing I could think about if I was a ''wet little wolf mother'' that Loki can carry me and I can only see the blur of the seaside. Not only that even if I was a cornered little wolf mother with a dagger held up like one of those ''cornered rats'' I would still hold on to his will and his ideals as one. Opening the beast slits to black with shards of yellow, if I had a secondary in the wet cold shores I would hope the olden wolf would be there so I can crawl in his fur and go into dream city. Ah yes a dreaming wet little wolf shaking cold ''fragile'' the ''prey'' but yet the wolf sees all and even hears the eaten roots of Yggdrasil and the shores of home of serpentine son of Loki. Water is part of what is ''I' ▽
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