Also if you refuse to read my profile or you complain about how long my profile is I will no longer message you and drop the conversation. Is 10 or 15 minutes of your time or depending on how fast you read that awful? If so you're most defiantly a disgrace.The abyss the promise is our pain. The promise is our pain. The promise is our pain.
O he of man. O he is beautiful.
In the end nobody can't see the beast and the one that silky paws holds the true form the beast mask and the completed beast mask and the true beast mask's form with no cracks. With this that would cause uncertainty of humans and that is humans are left by fear and with that fear the humans are left blinded which would send a wolf into paranoia insanity and madness. However did you know a wolf even questions what is the end? Because what is the beginning of a end? Myself? Anyways the wolf knows that one day that is certain the wolves will walk with the humans and the beast mask will be seen with opened humans and their blinded eyesight awoken. Because all that matters now is ascending myself to the new Yggdrasil tree and keeping the roots clear and sending the pure souls to the mana spring. However so my path is clear now perhaps back then my path was insanity and madness. Anyways in the end I've spiritual become stronger which saved my life from insanity and madness a wolf has evolved. Because with that spiritual training and the chi and the way of the samurai I’ve saw I’ve became and I’ve became one with the beast and the beast mask is repaired. Humans will one day see the true colors of my many personalities and I’ll make sure a new Yggdrasil is in good health or be consumed by the blue flames. However humans don’t deserved to be purified anymore and with that silky wolf paws note said I’ve given up on that instead I've moved on another spiritual path and path were perhaps my energy would be good and not a waste. Because that way I’m making my energy delightful for the new Yggdrasil Tree.
Humans aren't disciplined creatures. Have humans question their existence? Instead the oppose a judgmental sentiment on other humans? Why do you've to judge others? Why you cant judge your own well being? Ah that is certain because perhaps you're blinded by faith and run with the sheep. Which makes me question a human even more. Have you spoken with the devil? Could see the devil's true form? Could you see someone with a demonius heart of black and a soul and will of pure? No? Because humans are fearful beings of their own kind why the abyss and midnight wolf laugh at their own amusement. Anyways observing a human is quite amusing and makes me laugh at my own self because my other personalities are laughing and humans are like a toy on a puppet string.
I'll take my dark raven's crest with me held by the beast heart. I ran and howled the prototype of the blood river and the howling night. The beast is filled with memories of the past. O destructive child is this your resolve? I've a seat for you in Hell and I will make you my pupil and I'll breathe life into you once more. This is our oath. This is our oath to become my pupil and the way of the demonius. I've made you live life once more. Even if you leave your seat from Hell dear child and wonder off at the high clock tower in Hell I'll always leave this one throne for you so you can rest and rest here in Hell. The King's Guard will be waiting with the Queen's Guard's rest and the resting beast with the fallen beast magi cards gripped tightly in the silky paws. Rest for eternal. This is your second life anyways my child. Even if such the wondering of Hell I want to take my studies and knowledge everywhere. The crave for desire of knowledge and the festering of madness inside. I desire more. I cannot let this pride/ego/greed and feeling envious towards others go and escape my own sensors. This consuming thought dwells and festers within myself. Even so holding a book towards the northern gates of Hell thinking and sitting down thinking what if? What could've I done? What if this is certain? Perhaps this is certain? All these thoughts I really couldn't contain myself. Back then wild and rampant destroying everything around me so I could feel alive but in the end I decided to self suicide myself and reborn myself under a demon's grasp the King of Kings of many wives and children. These memories of you....ah the way I held my sword across you my eyes leading with fury and and fire. The beast blood couldn't be contained and even such with swirling madness. I thought I had myself under control that day but the beast arose upon myself the beast blood became uncontrolled and unstable everything must be destroyed and burned. Ah I remember then the river smelt like blood and the moon was nowhere to be seen because this was a new beginning of myself where I died and met the King of Kings. The shadows and the trees swayed the winds became jealous because I was jealous of my own pride and greed and ego and envious of others. I was jealous because I wanted to be free. I wanted to be free of my will of reality the grasping nightmares of reality. I wanted to be free from prison. I wanted to run free of this prototype shell. I wanted to cut the wires off from reality itself. But then the magi side of me is what got cut off by my ignorance. Before I met my static husband there I stood at the Hell's gate. Mr Bulba appeared to me with long horns and his King's robe his eyes swirled with silver and muted blue he had long claws from what I could remember then. I don't remember much back then but the claws against my back marking the sigil of Mr. Bulba and the maiden of Black Water. Where those that sin will drown and those that are unpure deserve utter annihilation like myself. Self liberation of oneself. I wonder then Mr Bulba what do you think of me now? I want to be asleep resting at the Queen's Guard the space in Hell you left me for eternal rest. Will Bel Bel the King of Spiders watch over me? That layered black hair with two medium size horns and dark colored slits and a tattered layered outlook of clothing with long claws and the cleaver of life and death watch over me? Could Bel Bel watch over life and death for me? Could he make sure the beast magi cards never fall out? I really wish I could sleep free from toxicity. Because sometimes the souls of the damned of Black Water are swirled within my head but they deserved their cause the unpure killed and saw my mother dead. I'm left with swirling madness and anger and disbelief of a failure of reality and a family. I've nothing left now Mr Bulba to seek out Uphi or Uphir do you think that Uphi will see me as a good student pupil Mr Bulba or Bel Bel? I wonder if I could teach bio because I love bio because how much I failed at reality and I want to make bio plants show their petals and life when I couldn't do that myself. I really do wish upon the darkest hour of the high tower in Hell that Uphi can grant me the ability to see more unto the unknown. He can clear out my toxic body that seems like that can no longer filter out anymore the toxic the insanity the nightmares that are slipping through me inside and becoming a rampant tide of the storm just like when the Black Water happened. I really wonder if Uphi or Uphir can see me as a good pupil? Could I teach chemistry and magi arts to the other demonius there? I really want to do something with this knowledge to filter myself out. If Uphi or Uphir can guide me to the right path then I....
Mr. Bulba
Bel Bel
Uphi (Uphir)
O he of man. The beast and the sigils. Guide me because I can't guide my own self. Take me under the demonius and cloak me in Hellion's Pain. I want to see. I want to become. I want to become your pupils and find myself self liberated and reborn again and alive.
Jupiter. Saturn. Neptune. Uranus
Did I choose to not listen to the angels anymore? Did I choose not to listen to the seraphs anymore? Or do I just want to see the sun one more time with you? O momma why won't you come back to me? If I could see the sun one more time could that be with you? O momma please reborn me into a new Yggdrasil Tree.
For friends:
Note I take a super long time to reply or sometimes I'm not in the mood to have a conversation and some days I just rather be left alone and let me have my peace. Please note I also suck at conversations and 100 percent everyday I will not know what to talk about. I'm willing to talk about anything except politics or sports or about my family and arguments about the environment/vegetarianism and veganism idealism beliefs. The reason is I really don't feel like getting into arguments and disturbing my peaceful balance and another thing is what is the silky paws point of starting negativity anyways in the first place? On that final note if you can't handle sensitive conversation topics and if you feel a mental break down is coming then there is no need to have conversations of this paws matter in the first place. Anyways free to bring any topic up or anything like that you wish. Please don't tell me I need to see a therapist. Or please don't tell me I need to get on medication. Or tell that I've Schizophrenia. You've no right to label me or play some kind of doctor role. If I ask for help or your opinion I will let you know so please don't feel sorry for someone like me. Please note as well I'm not anti towards people that are bi gay or transgender as long as you're happy that's fine as long as you're happy and content with yourself. As well as if you're a vegetarian or vegan that's fine but there is no need to shove your rights in my face. Don't judge me unless you want to get to know me. Be kind if you've nothing nice to me then don't say anything at all. I don't want anymore negativity in my life or no more toxic people because I'm 100 percent done with that. On a final note I will try to get to know you if you try your best to get to know me. But if you feel you must ghost me that's fine and that's a classic way to not hurt my feelings or yours. I no longer care at this paws point given time if anyone ghost me anyways for that matter on that note. Please don't ask me how my mom died or my dad's mom or my grandma it's none of your business and you shouldn't be asking those things anyways. The only thing you need to know is my dad doesn't know I'm on here and my dad is in disillusion land that he never did anything wrong to me. When he thought my depression was a joke and told me to go get help from a doctor and go see a E.R. or have one of my aunts to go take me to go see a doctor and not once has my dad sat down and had a daughter conversation with me. Just because you've provided me a roof and clothing and food etc over my head doesn't mean I've to love you. He denies that he has ever said this to me. I've never finished high school because of bullying and suicide and my mom was the only one that tried getting me out of high school but got denied by my dad and my dad also denies this statement. I don't drive because of feeling lifetime guilt if I killed someone on the road. I also get really numb and dizzy and I start to panic when I've high anxiety. I'm unsafe to drive and I could get someone killed. My whole family except my sister is anti weed so therefor I don't talk about weed around my family. I do not work. I've been trying to get new medical paper work for disability but my only ride that I've is my other aunt which is my dad's sister is taking her sweet time. I asked he to call me when she's ready and she never has. I've stated that I want to live off of government funding and my dad just looked at me and had nothing to say. I will never work or be apart of humanity. I refuse to work. On top of that my aunt wants me to pay $20 a day for a taxi to come pick me up screw that. Also with my temper and mood swings I rather not cuss someone out and tell them to go f themselves. But there is nothing I can do at this time but sit and wait until my aunt gets off her a$$. My sister and I are 6 years apart and lives in the outskirts of Austin. My dad has 3 sisters. I don't want anymore children because having a c-section is a complete total nightmare and I couldn't walk for four months. When my mom was alive she had to carry me to the toilet and to the shower because I couldn't get out of bed. I'm 5'2 and 95 pounds and 3 years ago I used to be 82 pounds but I could eat and eat and never gained weight. Now sense my metabolism is jacked up and I consume a lot of alcohol than I did 3 years ago and with that I've gained over 13 more pounds because of that. I dye my hair blue black and I hate my dirty blond hair for that matter. I will never in my life go back to my natural hair color and even if someone paid me for that matter LOL. I do nothing for my face besides witch hazel and face spray. If you want to know how or why my hair looks nice just ask I've used so many hair products I could make a wall of text. I also don't style or use heating tools for my hair. The only thing I hate is that my hair is blond and my hair grows super fast which makes me have to dye my hair every 6 weeks or close to a month something like that for that matter. Doesn't matter if I wash my hair every 3 days (yes I wash myself everyday and on that note if you wash your hair everyday you're extremely damaging your hair + making your hair really dry and brittle in the long run and also the natural oils in your hair is also good for you) also I use cold water which only helps a bit because hot water strips your hair color out and what's funny is when I want to use hot water I've to use a pillowcase or a old t shirt because my hair is that long LOL. Also I don't use sulfate for shampoos which also strips hair color. The best cheap conditioner however is Hask or L'Oreal. However the products that are awful are Garnier and Suave because those companies caused my hair to fall out in clumps and when I would rinse my hair out gently and barely even touching my hair with my silky paws fingers my hair would just fall out on the tub floor. Anyways with that said I think I had a allergic reaction or something in the ingredients that my hair didn't like because with the other products I listed I never did have that issue and my hair wasn't falling out and now I'm really spooked to even experiment on my hair ever again LOL. Anyways on that final note I also don't rinse out the conditioner right away it's best to leave on conditioner 3-5 minutes or if you've the time leave it on for 30 minutes while you go do something around the house which sometimes I do and I just wash my hair over the sink and then pat down my hair and then coat my hair with conditioner and let my hair strands 100 percent fully soak up the conditioner while I play a video game or something like that for that matter. My favorite shampoo sulfate free brand is Maui Moisture. Hask. Aveeno. Curious what products I've used by those companies? Ask. But I just get so tired of dying my hair every six weeks or a month and then bright dirty blond hair shows through. I really don't understand how people can go on for months or a year without coloring there hair. Also Blue Black isn't BLUE it's a hue that is shown in bright lighting or reflected in the sunlight and before you ask me yes there is several shades of black sold in hair dye boxes. I also haven't had my hair trimmed in a year. I know I'm just a cheap $$$$ that is to lazy to tell my aunt to take me to a hair dresser oh well I'll see if my sister can cut my ends some. So much for taking 100 percent care of my hair so I would say I 90 percent do or maybe 85 percent and with that said my hair isn't always perfect because I like to stop using my usual brands and start experimenting on my hair and which the scary spooky thing is sometimes causes my hair to fall out LOL. Finding out that I've chronic depression and PTSD last year and a half makes me understand why I'm addicted to self abuse by pills and alcohol. Last but not least I will say this so people will not get offended. I don't vote and I never will. I also am anti guns and also anti violence and anti hunting. My sister only knows about my anti depressants and alcohol abuse because the only secrets I trust is with my sister only. I don't trust anyone else. Staying up at 4-6 A.M. in the morning or chilling with my cats and drinking something when I feel like drinking which is like two or three times a week but it's not like a massive drinking spree. Anyways I usual drink two shots of vodka with a diet soda and not Pepsi my favorite diet drink is Cola or Dr. Pepper. Or I love pink lemonade with my vodka. Or if I've a 99 proof drink I only drink half and mix with a diet Dr. Pepper or a caffeine free. Sometimes I drink a whole 24 OZ can of beer. Or sometimes I've two shots of peach brandy or Fireball or Jagger. So what I'm trying to say is I pick out two shots of something or I pick out a 24 OZ beer to drink. So no I don't have obsessive or a drinking problem. I really don't like watching movies and I don't see myself as a person. Anyways if someone had to force me to pick four movies well here is my list. Star Wars. The Nightmare Before Christmas. The Hunger Games. Pirates of the Caribbean. I don't like horror movies and I don't like a lot of movies with massive violence or gore. The most I ever saw in a movie was Rogue One that $it was so dark in a good way I saw that three times. However I did saw Detective Pikachu and no I didn't cry myself a river. Perhaps one small tear for that matter but I did have some beer and gravy at 11 in the morning well I was visiting my sister at that time and curious why I had biscuits and gravy that early? Just ask. How many movies do I see in a year? 1-3 max I've never seen more than 5-10 movies in one year. My favorite Melee character is Wolf or I like to use random for fun. Anyways the usual ask what kind of videos I like. However don't ask if I like shooting games or horror games because I don't. I used to be into the RE series which 4 is my favorite and Silent Hill 2. However I don't know what happened to me a few years ago and now and why I don't like horror games anymore. Well I'm not the same person I'm now compared to a few years ago and that old person is never coming back. I've evolved and I've became. My favorite YouTube Let's Play is GirlGamerGab she isn't annoying. She also translates Japanese video games into English. Anyways CJUGames is also nice. However if not those two I usual just view a Let's Play with no commentary and deal with screeching or overreacting people playing a video games for attention. I prefer viewing anime in this form and that's subs because of the Japanese voice atmosphere added effects to the anime that's showing. Curious of what anime I've seen? Ask and I'll send a list I rather not type out a gigantic wall text. Don't ask me about my personal feelings about Naruto or Fairy Tail or One Piece or Death Note or My hero freaking academia or Sword Art Online. Because I simply don't care about those anime shows. I've not seen Black Clover so I can't place a verdict on that but at least Black Clover doesn't have a insane amount of episode list and I'll be 30 years old or more by the time those shows are over with. So please do ask for my anime list. Last note on this is what kind of music do I like and that is video game music. I used to listen to a variety of Metal music and I don't and I just ever so often listen to some Metal music here and there and honestly I don't think I can remember my top five bands anymore unless there is a memory lane jogger lmao.
Drugs are bad mmmmmmkay?
No longer playing playing Skyrim on the Xbox 360 that my son never plays and even asked for a Xbox 360 for his birthday and never played the system in over a year LOL. Anyways what video game and I'm playing? Well isn't that obvious from my username? Or maybe not? LMAO. Also I'm a cheap video game buyer I will not pay $60 for a video game brand new I will only spend $20-30 on a video game. So I often just wait for a few months or a year or two for a price drop. LMAO. Terrible I know.
Currently wishing to collect video game figures or plushies if I had a shelf to store stuff and things not go on the floor LMAO. I've a weird thing for collecting phone cases which often get lost or often scattered like my mixed match socks around the fort LMAO. Anyways I know that my phone case looks like a BL which you know Sebastian and Ciel get well w/e you know anyways I've seen a BL anime and I do enjoy BL anime so whatever I guess it's better than unrealistic harems or unrealistic gigantic ___ on the screen just for fan service at least BL has substance. Also very childish and likes to collect mystery blind bags that are for girls or for boys but then again there isn't really anything wrong with age and collecting things you like and I'm talking about like them Pikmi Pops and Li'l Woodzeez yeah I know 27 years old in the vessel shell and my ancient midnight wolf bones still collects those. However I know that's shocking after reading my profile I've a certain thing for cute and adorable and sparkly and glittery items right? I know quite shocking indeed like the wisp of my midnight fur hehe. Also wish to collect Pokemon cards again and Yu-Gi-Oh! cards again. I would really love to get a binder ring and get them in a card sleeve that has holes in them and put the binder ring on a shelf and hang them up like a display and not kept closed in a binder. Retail therapy is extremely relaxing
even though I'm more addicted to buying stuff online LMAO.Pumpkin flavors are my favorite
Cheesecake is my favorite dessert
If you want to know my new thoughts of the Pokemon game and the new Tales game please do because I would love to rant about them video games LOL.
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Warning I also don't download apps for anyone and the only thing that I've is \text/ \email/ \Google Hangouts/ and the slowest one possible is \Insta/
Anyways on that final silky wolf momma paws note on that one feel free to message me on \Insta/ sleepydreamwolf for more contact information or my other contact information can be found on \KiK/ AbyssMotherGem
P.S. I also don't post a lot on Insta you probably won't see post everyday or every week and so on and I also could careless about selfies and selfies are only posted every month and a half or two and very seldom do I post two in a given month
I love Peppermint tea or Cinnamon tea.
I'm also a spiritual silky wolf momma and I've six spirit sons and now taking care of my spirit fox friend's son his fox son Ethan and his baby brother Rascle and he's living with my sons in my fort because of personal reasons. My sons names are Theo and Willen. My twins Jackson and Greshimil or Greshimil of the Greshy. Xie. Kyang. I also have my berries removed in the spirits and I wish that could be the same for me in real as well. I know I've two husbands and 3 mates in spirits perhaps is strange but in the real world I would like to have my only boyfriend that I've now. I don't know how to express I just feel weird in the real world having that many partners in the real world compared to the spirit world. Because the spirit world feels natural and my first home anyways. Also long distance doesn't bother us and we've not met yet but little things can remind you of your significant other. Anyways what I silky paws mean on that note is like matching the same shirt or using the same shampoo and body wash and stuff like that for that silky paws matter. However on that note we do those things as a couple together and we really like doing that together. Because now I will close this because I'm clogging my profile even more worse than I already am right now but I wanted to say I'm finally comfortable saying these things because I no longer care what people think of me anymore for that silky paws final note matter.
Alright thanks for reading my profile and just letting you know there has been 10 + users so far that hasn't read my profile. I guess those users got a data bug or something
and remember I respond better on my other contacts thanks for reading and that is appreciated you didn't get a data bug or got data drained and fell in a strain of a coma and remember the abyss knows all and Mother Snake is absolute. 
