Former little gothy enough kid, I dropped the look but my heart is still black. Tired of the most random conversations, I want someone who's just as damaged as me and not here to judge me for my faults. I want a woman with similar interests as me, knows how to carry on a conversation, preferably no kids but I understand life goes directions we dont expect so we'll see how that goes when we get to it. Im looking for a deeper connection these days, s*x does not have the same appeal to me, I'm looking for someone I want to still be around afterwards. Im looking for someone who makes me happy just to see them and they feel the same way for me. I have been made to feel maybe I just dont deserve to be happy, or I simply never will. But I still cant accept the depression of feeling alone in the world and hope to find something like a soul mate. Tired of feeling misunderstood and expendable. Am I truly alone in the world ?