Whelp I remembered my pass and username but I had towards coming on here one more time because I really want too show off my new nickname
that's Saieh's Inc. An Inc where all your hopes desires and dreams of your enemies become a nightmare for them and an unpleasant nightmare at that I can say and even such a game because as a spirit I will deliver harsh punishment on those. However tricking the mind games and strings is just how I like things done
I will be on Vampirefreaks instead of this but I had to change my profile and s**t so that's where things stand and I another thing I had to update my Vampirefreaks because PrincessUlfMoon is gone because I wanted to change my name into SuicideRibbionsWolf because somehow that username is sticking with me personally
so if you want to find me there however I filled out my about me section as an update so f**king Hell whatever haha also why not change my profile picutre as well
Vampirefreaks account
https://vampirefreaks.com/SuicideRibbionsWolf
For songs and artist look at my Last.fm account
https://www.last.fm/user/I_The_Jackal
How to piss me off guide >.<
1. Failure of reading a profile that means everything until you can't scroll anymore
2. Saying I skimmed your profile or you telling me that my profile is too long to read you will be instantly blocked
3. Please don't ask me questions that have already been stated on my profile find something else to ask
4. Please don't ask me to repeat myself over and over again if something was stated on my profile I will be so f**king aggervated
5. I can careless if you hate me degrade me treat me like s**t or think I'm fruttier than a basketcase I don't care
6. I will block messages that are commented on my looks and people that have high standard for physical apperence
7. Final guide line rule don't like me? Have an issue with me? f**k off I don't care what you have to say
Everything is paw typed by me researching this on Google will be a waste of your time
I've others like this but I normally keep everything saved on FB
Do you know what a suicide ribbon is? Cut a transmitter off a magi in the wrong way ''shutdown'' there goes the Little Wolf. The more I think about this the more things make more sense. However above all else Saieh I know you have the ability too shut off my transmitters at will because as a magi we can't handle high stress signals as our mind goes rampant. But I do thank you for the other day mind you. I felt the hatred and anger brewing over I wanted everything too burn as a tear fell from my eyes. Saieh I know you remain true seeing things burn and suffer just like you did. I remember in my sleep I saw your war hound battles and what your past life was like I didn't know what to think anymore after I saw everything. You really degraded yourself you experimented you alchemized you drank and poisoned yourself with serpentine blood. You fought like a loyal war hound. You would destroy anything you saw as a target didn't you. I knew Saieh you were the one to toy and game creatures because your pride and ego was that sickening. Just like a heart of a snake it's more of a sly slithering squeeze. The ooze of pain pulsates the core flashes. Everything becomes lower. Destroy. Suffering. Pain. Remorse. Agony. The same reason why you cut one of the elders head off. That wasn't pride or ego speaking that was the beast inside of you that wanted to say ''I'm no longer weak'' I'm the ''strong one of the override'' I know why you killed your elders that's okay Saieh just like that fateful day your village was on fire but the more I dwell on you there is a glimpse of a sense of happiness your eyes looking over at the world. Finally my ''life set ablaze'' I also see you studying the Wolven Curse Book as always you always seem to be engrossed into that book and kept that in your Wolven Pouch. You were merciless in the past indeed you were you would make things bow down to you. You would make things be tested and hunted you would do the same thing that you did to ''yourself'' because that's what made you feel ''alive'' But I know you don't want me to say anymore about you Saieh past this point so I won't but let's go back. The reason why I exist and live is because of you. I understand we've not reached Paradise yet and if we both didn't exist then we failed the ''Lunar One'' our duty here isn't done yet. I burry my face in Saieh's fur. I hate existing though and I look at his crimson red eyes. Saieh wolves don't belong here. Saieh looks down at me. Paradise is where wolves belong. A wolf needs a place where they're free from their curse their burden and their pure suffering a place where the soul can be at rest. After all Little Spark you're all I've left anyways he morphs back his wolf/man form Little Spark....he put his claws around me and pulls me closer too him and closes his eyes. As a spirit I can't live without you. You were the one that never saw evil me but you never gave up on me....you're more than just a kin but one of my own. But the thing is a war hound is something I don't want you to become. I know thinking all is lost is a hard thing too face. I wanted vengeance and to be honest Little Spark he squeezes me a bit and his eyes pulsates crimson red with ice blue slits I still will never forget what all has happened then and then now I just can't. I know Little Spark what you want. You want to collar yourself and become a loyal war hound like I was. You wanted to fight you wanted to do the same thing as I did to myself. But the thing is if you weren't around I would still be a war hound but I chose to ''save you'' as an alchemist I know I can't save you....I failed....but at least I've Little Spark now and to make sure you don't fall into a ''trap'' like I did with my ''own self''
As a spirit I can relate in such matters with not functioning so well in the head. The past Saieh would sit in a corner a shunned out room. I thought existence? Only in the shadows. I thought myself was a lie. False dire forsaken you know the good depression ingredients. I was quite the heartless one in the past. Selfless like you almost in a poisonous way because that's what I did about myself. Serpentine is quite healthy in small amounts because that's what fuels a magi powers even though I'm mostly warrior. I would sit in the corner of my room with my head down acting insane twitching I was almost like ''?'' but people Little Sister have stupid arrogance perhaps you get that trait from me. After all you been through this year and you get asked that? That's like asking how the f**k do you make a rocket go? In modern terms rocket science. After what this world has wrongfully done to you I wouldn't forgive the world either that's the ultimate betrayal anyone can face. Who cares if someone says life will get better that's a false lie because this world is a trap because I know what losing someone into murder and being taken away from you because I had the same problem as you did Little Sister and til this day as a spirit I still don't have no forgiveness once you faced the ultimate betrayal there is no going back onto joyous and happiness. Yes let me cheer and rally happiness because I know everything is okay you f**king morons!!!!! As a spirit I like being active in the world because I like how ''dirty'' this world is and my sick twisted mind makes me realize how awful of this unjust planet is. In all honesty for those that don't understand Little Sister and I we want this planet cleansed of disease and realize judgement but that will all come in a given day. Little Sister I don't know what I feel but a certain unfilled happiness. You can be given shelter food gifts and still will feel unhappy it's not because you're ungrateful your mind has gotten towards the point of no return. I believe that some voids can't be filled and completed only a vortex will remain. I also find a sense of confusion but that's always been a given day sometimes where you don't understand the true form of reality and you end up in a fury of confusion and that frustrates you into a given rage. I also feel like you just are not there like some days you function exist. I would say your depression is a deep as the ocean itself and the tide is your fury and rage and not accepting things. I know you and I don't handle betrayal well and we become mentally and different creature betrayal changes ''US'' but ultimate betrayal ''I'' will not find forgiveness that is a harsh thing for a Wolf that's like asking for pure happiness which Little Sister and I don't comprehend so well but what we do comprehend is a Wolven Paradise but this has been repeated over and over so many times can be repeated into a book. A Wolf doesn't belong in this world but a Wolf pure of heart is deemed tormented because those kind of Wolves get dished out harsh punishment for no given reason even karma deems them unworthy Little Sister did nothing wrong but pray for a better year and she gets stabbed in the back unforgivable!!!! At least in a Wolven Paradise there will be a place for Wolves where they are belonged and fill welcomed and not shunned and degraded. However that would mean finally ''Our'' souls are finally at rest. Float our Wolven bodies on the Lunar Pool floor
I know some days Little Sister you don't tell me but I know sometimes you lay in your bed just I don't know the correct term but floating other than here but I've been a researcher of creatures. I wouldn't say I experimented on you but perhaps you feel I experimented way too much on myself. But to answer your question did you die? I ask that myself all the time did I die? You see you and I are almost like carbon copies. I asked Felix for some advice sense he is a version like me but only a fox I asked about Kitsune that chapter in my book is all scribbled with notes. But Felix told me a Kitsune is a fragile being but magical so is there flame and their tails. Once a Kitsune dies their flame also goes out depending how much light or darkness they hold they can morph into something much worse but you see a Shadow Wolf would be almost close into mutation but Saieh I believe you transmuted new life onto your Little Sister. Because you simply can't live life without her. If alchemy and transmuting yourself into her would mean her spirit would be anew and a new being formed that would make you happy at all cost. But back onto me what happened that day at the ocean all I remember is Little Sister shaking my tattered Wolven body with my broken war hound collar next to me. Ooze came out of my jagged Wolven jaw my eyes were faded crimson I was looking at something but I couldn't understand? Somehow Little Sister I think our memories are swirling together both pushing and fighting against each other for the ultimate truth
The ocean just like a plug as to water Saieh Inc also has good metaphors haha
Likes
Wolves. Moon. Spirituality. Alcohol. Jagger. Jaggrbombs. Mead. Shiner Bock. Stuff animals. I collect Furby's haha. I like sleeping a lot. Well I sleep because some days I just can't do today. I like feeling nested and cocooned. I play RS and it's always more fun when buzzed lol. WWE. I don't have a favorite band. I love a variety of Metal and Witch House depending on my mood but the concert ground with a beer in my hand dancing and head banging that's pure happiness for me. Forest. Trees. The sound of the Ocean it's so peaceful. Darkness. Being away from things. Food however I'm a picky ass eater though that's just me. Also another thing if you have anything else you wanna know just ask because I don't f**king know for the love of Loki right now
Food
Pizza - well it's obvious the more cheese the better so extra or triple cheese pizza pepperoni and spinach alfredo - spinach only on pizza and pasta I normally don't eat spinach by itself
Pasta- I can go on for days about pasta as long as there is no veggies in my pasta D:
Cheeseburger- I'm easy meat and cheese only
Sandwiches -black forest ham and pepper turkey many types of cheese with only light ranch on the sandwich and sometimes chipotle ranch isn't a come and go for me sometimes I want that on my sandwich and sometimes I don't it's just a hit or miss for me lmao
Ramen noodles - just the basics I guess
Mash Taters
Personal information I understand if this section is the reason why you stop talking that's fine on Vampirefreaks if you own an account I've more personal things going on with my life but it's set as a friend's only because it's that personal
1. I suffer from PTSD and Massive Depression my PTSD was digonised by a psychiatrists ever sense my Mom past away May 1st I ''mentally'' ''spirtually'' haven't be right at all but the thing is I believe that once you have someone that is your angel and human and that is taken from you I guess you really don't understand how bad you're truly suffering now sense my Mom is gone so is my barrier and now look how much of a wreck I'm in
2. Please don't ask why I'm depressed or tell me things will get better try being in my mindset and live the lifestyle I do then maybe you wouldn't be thinking the same. However my luck is so awful it's not even funny. Don't you know what the sad part is? All I ask was for a better year and this is how karma treats me? When I did nothing wrong? I'm sorry but I don't handle ulitmate bettryal. Telling me things will get better or asking why am I depressed will piss me the Hell off really bad. I could careless honestly if you think I'm an attention seeker or making things sound dramatic nah I'm just being honest that's asll but hey suit yourself think what you want too think
3. I don't drive the reason why I don't drive is because I don't feel safe driving another reason is I could never forgive myself if I ever hurt someone or killd someon in a wreck. Also I randomly have panic attacks and my vision blurs as well and sometimes I zone or get lost in thought but my virtue stands strong if you feel that you're unsafe behind the wheel then don't drive at all
4. It's obvious by now and the reasons why I don't work there is a lot of things on my dad's plate right now and I've not been able to file for disablity yet
5. My dad is judgemental and super Christian I'm not allowed to smoke weed or even talk to people that smoke weed so I've to lie to my dad about people that smoke that are in contact with me. As stupid as that sounds it's the truth that my dad will not let me hang out with anyone that smokes but that's what you get for living with someone that's stuck in the olden days and I dare not live with my super Christian aunt that will drive me 100 percent more insane then I already am. Also my dad has 0 clue about any other websites I'm on besides FB because he has no reason to know anyways because all is he going to do is get on my last nerve. I'm thankful my dad is letting me drink more but that's hypcrictal isn't that so? Well that's my dad for you
6. I don't want anymore kids I've one and don't want anymore also I don't have full custody of my kid that's why I can't move anywhere also my Sister is 3 hours away
Alright well I said what I must so if you want I only have FB Kik and Runescape left
https://www.facebook.com/moon.wolf.967
Kik
PrincessUlfMoon (ironic this was my Vampirefreaks name but you can only change your title not your username and it's to much of a hassle to make another account LOL)
Runescape
Jagger Wolf