also you're highly disrespectful and rude if you can't even read my whole profile it's so aggravating when someone ask me a question and it's right on the profile lol. Anyways I sleep a lot or very little my sleep time frame is all messed up so just saying I may be awake at odd hours and sleep at odd hours me and sleep aren't allies at allThere as I staid in the room Saieh made me for me. I sit beside my elemental given towards an elemental priest on my on my journey. I sit and think why holding a mask ''sky huh?'' I look at the mask. Felix what do you say? Sky is an element holder of jealous and envy because things are free. Wolves like you don't like things that are free because in the end you know that you will never be free unless your soul is at rest. Val a.k.a. Valisker speaks I'm the mirror of madness even an Avian I can see why you hold self hatred in the ''sky'' but the sky has gave you the ''final judgement'' on things and you know I like unjust things and making them just and just like cutting off puppeteer strings. Saieh speaks even though pride and ego is also my down fall and part of you as I agree with Felix that you and I Little Sister will never be free of this torment until we can find Paradise so our souls can be finally ''free'' and at rest. The worthless one and the forsaken one speaks I've finally seen through the lies and the deception that's the only good you've graced me ''sky'' I can finally see all this delusion. However I believe that the illusion was my life + myself + my own existence my own self is a lie and a illusion. As I hold the mask close to me thank you....you're all apart of me and this new ''SKY'' whatever you Felix and Val and Saieh and the worthless and forsaken one we will find this one day as I hold the mask up we will finally be ''free''
Saieh.....I....
This wolf....has no hope anymore
The little wolf princess sits at her throne. I sit there questioning my existence. There I hold a chalice of serpentine blood you see. The blood of the ''snake'' is quite tasty indeed. The power of the snake is the power of my own magi self it's intoxicating like my own self. You see my views are simple
Never stray from the Lycan, never ''change''
Never ever let a member fall
Never run away but run away from yourself
Never see someone else like a mirror strike them like a knife in fact always hold the knife behind your back and know went towards a deadly blow like a venomous poison
Always know you self hate yourself
Always know you will be cursed
Always know the moon is the way of life
Know you're a burden and act happy
Hybrids don't bother me like you spirit brother Saieh
The Lunar Roots of Salvation of the Lunar One is there
Lunar One is the one that trains us in harsh conditions
I've finally learned losing hatred betrayal runs strong in wolves
A weaver in some wolves are true the weavers of their own demise
Paranoid? I'm paranoid of existence and even myself
Telling me we're going to make it gets on my nerves yah yah yah shut the f**k up
My eyes are forsaken hollow and voided
You see? It's nothing really no not at all nothing really is worse than my own self
In fact little sister heh you knew why I came towards being the evil one no? You see I'm more of the winged spine because you know ''us'' we hate the element wind ''flying other than here'' what a joke geh. Something like that wants me towards vomiting. I wanted everything towards burning because I wanted beings mer so I wanted them to watch them ''suffer like I did I want them to rage of pure agony'' I became a ''warrior of my own demise'' I was almost like a blade I would strike at anything because why not? Isn't that I've always ''known'' Hell Hound geh f**king sicking ''fused collar'' but you see in the end scorching everything insight really taught how much ''madness'' was inside of me more in fact ''driven'' heh every creature ran from my piercing red eyes and black abyss colored fur but you saw some kind of ''good'' in me. But in the end I saw something special on you but in the end our cores are the same blue vs red where yours is blue vs purple almost like a color code of some swirling madness something that drives us more than Paradise ever will. You see running into you little sister I could finally use my skills on someone like you. My ''arts'' are not for everyone nor will I teach anyone. More in fact my pride is also my downfall. But in the end I will never rest I'm bound to protect and that is ''You'' to see what ever comes across. I chose you because you're more so just like ''ME''
Even if so you think so....dire and false there isn't nothing that will revive the thought of self worth and values. I come to notice that things fade away and they go and leave. Once you have come too the part of my psyche level you will understand. That all is lost. Hopeless and dire and forsaken I drown being pulled into a nightmare pool. However my body fights but my spirit is stronger but in the end I end up in the place of nightmares. Saieh what would you say? I'm a nightmare itself but in fact what's a nightmare is staring at the abyss because the abyss stares back. Heh have you known for me to meditate in the abyss? It's because that's just how much darkness I really hold each of like you it's not darkness it's driven hatred and madness and unjust things. You take the Lycan codes serious and your prayers towards the Lunar One but the one thing that I notice Saieh comes close face to face and fluctuates his eyes at me you can't accept yourself no he shakes his head you hate everything about you and you will never accept that until Paradise takes you. He pulls me close with his paws a shadow like grins static and ooze drips on my shoulder you know right? What drove me? I threw myself into battle I fought like a war hound but better yet I took the shadows onto me. I became a shadow I became myself you call this a 7th sense I think what this is for both of us we both have became aware of a delusional reality what is false and what is a lying truth of illusion. He flicks the Wolven totem on my neck. Our kind isn't welcome here we're walking almost on cloud but a mask per say but foolish. Sense of reality we both laugh we shake our heads our eyes look voided we smile so fake it's so funny. But I push playfully and I pull Saieh close to me and I put my arms around him. A love between a sister and brother wolf. Saieh you are right I put my claws on his Wolven head and I pull him closer with my other paws. Maybe you were right you didn't want a relapse but there is nothing can be done. Rest easy. You know you said because there was nothing left that's why I was the target? Well I believe what you feel now this remorse....this agony....Saieh eyes slit between ice blue and crimson red. Why sister? Why do you forgive me so easy? It's because I've always cared for you....like you've for me isn't that so? Saieh tell me we will play hunt and games with others? I'm sick and tired of being hunted and chased even though that's part of our curse please let's let everything go? Saieh puts his claws around me. You see you and I are just like after all why would I say no? A image comes in both of our eyes Saieh and I on a hill holding claws together we look down at the world laughing like mechanical dolls you say you want to play hunt and game? We will give you that. This time sense you decided to play with both of us we will dish out the cards and watch each one fall one by one we're the 7th sense our Wolven ways are one and this false reality will not be part of that. Because that's is sick and disgusting just like you. There we feel the world ablaze me and Saieh our eyes look so voided a fake smile turns into a happy sorrowful grin of relief and still not satisfied. I hold the Woven totem in my paws and I clutch the Wolven totem. We will reach this desire one day. One day with both of ''US''
Food
Pizza - well it's obvious the more cheese the better so extra or triple cheese pizza
pepperoni and spinach alfredo - spinach only on pizza and pasta I normally don't eat spinach by itselfPasta- I can go on for days about pasta as long as there is no veggies in my pasta D:
Cheeseburger- I'm easy meat and cheese only
Sandwiches -black forest ham and pepper turkey many types of cheese with only light ranch on the sandwich and sometimes chipotle ranch isn't a come and go for me sometimes I want that on my sandwich and sometimes I don't it's just a hit or miss for me lmao
Ramen noodles - just the basics I guess
Mash Taters
Likes
Wolves. Moon. Spirituality. Alcohol. Jagger. Jaggrbombs. Mead. Shiner Bock. Stuff animals. I collect Furby's haha. I like sleeping a lot. Well I sleep because some days I just can't do today. I like feeling nested and cocooned. I play RS and it's always more fun when buzzed lol. WWE. I don't have a favorite band. I love a variety of Metal and Witch House depending on my mood but the concert ground with a beer in my hand dancing and head banging that's pure happiness for me. Forest. Trees. The sound of the Ocean it's so peaceful. Darkness. Being away from things. Food however I'm a picky ass eater though that's just me. Also another thing if you have anything else you wanna know just ask because I don't damn hellion know for the love of Loki right now
Favorite WWE
Dean Ambrose and Aleister Black
I don't know what's stronger this edge I've or my mind but in the end I know I know the weakness and the fault I'm. I sit there smiling grinning knowing all my hopes dreams values are nothing but little sparks of nothing. I know perhaps the 7th sense has clouded my judgement or perhaps I just finally noticing perhaps with a strong sense of smell I can finally see through clearly through the clouds all the self doubts and selfless I had of myself I knew I only did that because I didn't care about myself at all but others are more important than myself and I'm so numb to my own being I just don't care and I acknowledge that. But as I narrow my head I know hmmmmph this is who I've become. I've become finally in touch with ''YOU'' oh how I though you were the ''forgotten sun'' knowing why I've I forgotten is that self arrogance and pride pushed me through this forsaken driven insanity? No I don't think so I think alchemy and the unknown driven me insane pulling souls as a puppet string just to see them be ''ALIVE'' but then again there goes my selfless egoist pride. But in the end I've played this game well after still thoughts in my head you're being ''hunted'' you're being ''challenged'' Nothing has changed nothing has but a walking dancing happiness that seems fake but maybe it's because I'm trying to feel some kind of emotion again that has been put away from me. I snap like a wild wolf without it's owner but my own is lost my angel and human shell is finally gone now I'm collar free I don't know how to say or how that effected me so badly but soul connected we were. Saieh you lost something too? But revenge and avenging would only making you happier. I think I know why you like tossing things in the abyss like a doll because that symbolizes fragile and perfection is drowned. Only to be ''cleansed of this forsaken cursed diseased'' I say with a forsaken shadowed grin....everything....makes so much sense now
The thing is spirit and core wolf
The thing is mind of a spider
The thing is heart of snake
The thing is core purple and red and hint of silver
Saieh core purple and blue. Saieh you were the better half of me despite the spider webs you webbed your burden and your fate. But always our hearts are like venomous snake oozing pain suffering remorse yet striking to become pure of this sin. What did we say when we held paws? Our sin will never be free of burden until we find Paraidse. Which I remember in your eyes you saw many fall their eyes shake their bodies shake and quiver with a last gasp a reach of final sense of why? I was so close their despair has come close toward a final ending they fall and the abyss closes their mind a web of puppeteer holds them together. Saieh big brother I remember you throwing the bodies over your shoulder and carrying them like dolls that's right fragile mind but a snake heart of sicking desire. This is what you deserve you never came close to my favorite isn't that right Little Spark? Saieh smirks with a faded grin we're the forsaken ones yet given a task by the Lunar One but remember you're the banisher and I'm the destroyer webbed eternal struggle one pulling harder than the other. Our howls become one. I just....Saieh overshadowed my mind come now Little Spark lets dance in the shadow and dance in the moonlight let our soul scream of the moon let our core beat and fluctuates between the Paradise waves. Little spark what have we done? O" what have we done the shadows overlay him dire forsaken insanity lifeless. There I hear the Lunar One grinning you are so....done for....this is done for isn't this false reality? Built on forsaken hopes and dreams but not as your traumatizing nightmare....O Little Spark and Saieh....geh....
This place feels dead here. The flowers are rotten. The ground is everything bone and carcass. There is a death seed formed by a oak hollow branched tree with many branches. Where here death plays a sorrowful tune of suicide. The nooses form all over my body as I hold a noose close to me in my hand I look at the moon gazed across the oak hollow tree. So this is what death feels like isn't that so? Forsaken ''One'' I sit against the the oak hollow tree hearing the screams of the suicidal spirits a tune a hum that sounds like a despair of death itself spiraling. You know this tree belongs with many nooses, many indeed hanging across all the oak hollowed boned out branches, the noose of death, the noose of the suicidal spirits hung on all the branches. Oh what a beautiful tree you're. I look over I see a big black static wolf. His paws crushing the bones underneath him. His crimson eyes gaze at me. Telepathic thoughts come through ''Sister!!!'' he comes to me sitting beside me as I pet his beautiful handsome coat. I lay against his fur sighing and looking at the noose I've in my hand and I look into his crimson eyes. Brother I'm really scared! I nuzzle into his fur! I'm so scared of loosing this feeling I've! I feel like I'm in love! I shake his fur as he lets out a puff understanding my emotions! Losing this! As well as losing all these feelings!! Clinches the noose I hear a higher melody as the ''Night'' sings even more as I stare into my big brother's crimson eyes as the death pedals soar across us brother without you and the one I love how could I possibly go on like this? Now Little Sister we're the ''Moon Children'' we're bound to be cursed as he sets his paws gently on my shoulder I promise you I will keep you safe and happy as long as I can the Night's Tune becomes more frantic and more static like as the noose sway in the shadowed like wind as I take my big brother's paw against mine paw promise the ropes squeeze somewhat tighter around me I can't live like this anymore brother!!!! I know Little Sister trust me I know your happiness is important to me not something that's rotten here as with my big brother I lay against the hollow oak tree listening to the lull of ''Death'' next towards my brother wondering in ever so deep thought this is death's paradise where nothing is to be seen, nothing but hollowed out suicidal noose spirits and the tune of the ''Night'' O'' Forsaken ''One''. The rage inside, the love I've for you. To love a wolf
Also I've more of the stuff I typed on my FB hall I don't have my poems of woes on my laptop they're just saved in a buried hall on FB lmao
I also only decided to have three photos that are my favorite don't like that? Get over that I simply don't care why are people that god damn obsessed over selfies? I understand maybe your bf and gf selfies I can understand that but by yourself I don't really see why you would take 10-30 photos a day? Also sense apparently people have issues with a few of my poems listed here I don't care not everyone speaks their psyche out like I do and I'm a very cryptic person but I think people are so blind and stupid they don't understand that? Also dog filter selfies are f**king stupid you're not cute at all you look like a f**king retard. Also I know that all I do is sleep all day which I my sleeping habits just go out the wall for some reason don't know why. I know all I do is watch anime or WWE or RS but the the thing is my dad works he is not one of those people that likes going out and doing things he is the type of person that likes to say I'm ready to go. I understand my dad is a worrywart and my dad is stressed and is super tired from work. But some people can't comprehend that? Also my Sister is 3 hours away works n lives with her husband how do you expect her to take me somewhere? Also my aunt is to busy taking care of other people so that's why my transportation is bad and the thing is Conroe is a living hole you have to travel for entertainment to do something. I understand I need to work to get disability cause I've depression anxiety and PTSD but there is a lot of things on the table right now. I just hate it when people take out their frustration and anger out people when they don't understand something. Also my dad is old school so he doesn't allow me to smoke weed and I also got to lie to my dad that if my friends or boyfriend smokes I've to lie about that. I understand I'm 24 years old but you're talking about my dad and also he doesn't need to know about me having a dating site because I know he would flip his s**t
also my dad will always be stuck in the olden days and always will be. However you may ask how do I know that? Well it's quite obvious that I can see that 100 percent clear and true so but what can I do about that? NothingAlso about my dad just because he shouldn't know about weed and isn't also tolerant of drugs (not calling weed a drug I'm moving on about another subject) my dad isn't the reason why I don't do drugs. I think drugs are legit retarded and you're a clear fake spine if you use drugs too an enhance either a situation or spiritual and meditation etc. You're considered weak in my class. However how I got this spiritual was I had too shut myself 25 percent forget about myself and who I was and my false reality you can call this a time meditation if you will but I was in a different ''state'' of mind and reality I was focused on something more of the ''soul and spirit'' and finding out the real ''YOU'' I can't make you become this way nor can I teach you. I can advise you and give you support but there isn't really nothing I can do. Besides it's your body mind spirit and core isn't that so? Also you can ask about my spirituality but don't get butt hurt about a question and you feel deeply offended by such things. Anyways last note on this subject if you clearly have a problem with my spirituality good for you I don't really care yet again
Also my mom is gone when I say that my Mom doesn't exist on this planet anymore she's dead and another thing people shouldn't be concering themseleves with is you should never put yourself behind the wheel if you're feeling unsafe about yourself and others around you. I don't care if you think what I'm saying in my profile is bull crap it's only honesty. I'm sure you're just like everybody else I've transportion left and right no I don't
https://www.last.fm/user/I_The_Jackal use this if you wanna know if I'm listening too music or not
also look up my bands here also for those that finally made your way all the way down the bottom you've earned my respect so many times have I asked people have you read my profile? Because so many people ask a question and it's right on my profile and why should I've too repeat myself over and over again? You complain about the length of my profile get all moody about my profile but what's the point about an about me section? Makes no sense? When that way the person already knows a book full about you because in my psyche that's how things should be and if you got a problem can I tell you something? I don't care then you're not worth my attention or time too commune with you My mission now is only dire forsaken voided lifeless but at the same time
My transmitters has been strung cut which is lethal towards a magi done wrong
I can reprogram myself at will once but it's not that easy
Human? I lost my human shell she's gone now and so is my angel
Truth hurts but I know now days nobody likes honesty
Honesty hurts like a blade I like things honest and on a platter
I value words of advice but know this I'm a wolf and that's all
Wolves the true one stick towards the Lycan and always the Wolven Rights
Loki Valhalla will know my path in given time
Nobody says you have to be friends with me force friendship is bulls**t
Nobody says you have to be with me to feel sorry for me
I know my views are harsh now but my reality is distorted
This is a curse a burden by the Wolves and the mark of the Moon heh
https://www.last.fm/user/I_The_Jackal use this if you wanna know if I'm listening too music or not
also look up my bands here https://www.facebook.com/moon.wolf.967
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