Yes I typed this I wouldn't say wrote because I typed everything down and saved but yes I typed this out this is the deepest part of my psyche and how I deeply feel with everything some people get what I'm saying some don't and for those of you that don't sadly you and I might not quite get along but I will not judge paws first on that matter. However I have a bad habit of forgetting coming on here if I do my contact information is left below after you've read everything about my deepest part of my psyche and how I deeply feel with everything so enjoy and you've opened a new voided library
There I stood dancing like a graceful wolf with wings I come in realization with my paranoia and trauma it's almost like a controlling sense I want everything I love and care about too be next to me and only me it's all about me self scared of losing self control of things being taken away from me I've lost full control over my insanity and Wolven self this is a given fact truth. However in a mer fact I've lost myself and my way I sit there looking up at the night sky wondering when? When will I find myself? When will I find Paradise? When will I seek this peace within my soul? I'm self conflicted with my own self and will almost self worthlessness I don't know anymore. But I've in fact understood something. There I hold the mask the left part speaks I'm Felix I'm the amber I'm the fire of the sun I'm also pride but I'm also sense of judgement of the forgotten sun I'm the heat and the fire of your desire you seek. The right side of the mask speaks I'm Val or Valisker the hone of your madness part of your insanity I'm the bird of judgement I'm also the strings of the puppeteer I'm the pure insanity I'm the bird of the mirrors. The top mask speaks I'm Saieh the true holder of you I'm the intuitive I'm the warrior and magi I'm also the ego and the pride in you. The bottom of mask speaks. I'm the soul of you the worthless one I'm the dire one and the forsaken one. I fall down holding the mask self conflicting with myself there as I fell down I hold the mask as my body and arms and paws shakes and as I clutch and my Wolven eyes open wide however mer so I know the truth this is ''ME'' all of this is ''Me'' look at the disastrous mess I've become thank you for becoming ''One'' and of course the holder of ''Souls''
To appear from what is lost towards given I don't know. Notice. Notice. Pain. Pain. Suffering. Suffering. Oh wait what are you talking about? I say with a forsaken grin. I'm imbued with all otherwise how would I live? I say with a sinister laugh how would I live? What are you talking about I fail towards understanding your desire and within oneself. You see I ripped apart many ''Tara's'' and made many more ''Anew'' each time a ''Tara'' failed I reprogrammed and made anew. A someone's dying wish no more in fact hypothermic state spirit it's only a will or a matter to try to salvage of what you can towards becoming ''Something'' else. Oh someone help me. Someone help me. However it's not that of a fact for a cry for help. It's you Saieh. I know I'm failing you big brother wolf. I know. I know. I know dying wolf yet so dire. So dire for alchemy So dire for murder. So dire for savageness. So dire for the Moon and Paradise. So dire for Hades. So dire and yet so weak only the Night's Tune will help us. Forsaken One. There I stood at the Celestial Door with nothing left but a ''hollowed body'' my head tilted sideways with my hair almost covering my eyes there slitting my eyes at the ''Lunar One'' I fall on my knees.I cried. I cried. Lunar One please. Lunar one please!!!! I curl up my limp wolf body in a remorse of help me!!!! Now now now forsaken one I got you. His four wings open up as he holds me close to me and he puts his claws on my face with a slight squeeze not hurting me. So cold and yet dire. Forsaken one. However so this is a new one isn't that so? He turns me to a tilt looking at my shoulder my bound symbol is even more potent now. My veins look toxic. The Lunar One squeezes me he tries to look away. His eyes turn a deep purple with a black slit I see a slight shed of a tear. His wings lower. I'm sorry that was unjustified of me. He takes me in another level in the ''Lunar Sphere' what is this? You never showed me this Lunar One why? Because....Because ''Dire'' I see a beautiful forested area with the Moon bright the Moonlight even burns my tainted wolf bones. The Lunar Ones drags his 4 wings on the floor and he folds them back in with ease. My eyes go into shock. There I see a ''Man'' tall and long black hair with piercing green eyes he gently sets me down on a throne and he looks at me. Forsaken One!!!! Attention!!!! I look at him he shows me alchemy scars all over his body he walks over to me you see I could never show you this because you would've ran from me and my path you see as well where the wing joint is he shows me 4 bound symbols each one is different. You became ultimate didn't you? You did everything to escape ''You'' Lunar One why? He sits right next to the shining Moonlight I see there absorbing the energy with his eyes slitting more into mirror pieces. There he clicks in his claws a sphere. Lifeless. Dire. Insanity. He sits up opening his four wings again. Forsaken One? His eyes in still mirrored pieces he comes over to me. ''Stay'' ''Stay'' ''Stay'' ''Stay'' poisonous one.
Child of the Moon/Chapter 89763
There I stand at the gates of the underworld, dressed as the Child of the Moon itself. Winged celestial outfit. As in a way I saw Hades standing there as if he was waiting for me and he grinned while he halted his hell hounds. However Hades looked at me like so Saieh is rampant again? I also feel Child of the Moon this isn't your doing. I feel the reason why Saieh has gone crazed is his wavelengths and his Wolven form is growing the added stress between you two are creating a voided explosive vortex. Hades moves my outfit a bit only to uncover the shoulder. What the f**king Underworld? He shouts. My bounded symbol has turned into an arrow and the crescent moon upside down with the bound marks slashed in a X pattern and with 3 coming across. Hades puts his claws on my shoulder blade. No this is quite bad. Very bad. One of my ''Hounds'' has only came this close to transforming this bad. Saieh has completely lost control. Damn!!!! Damn!!! Hades goes over to his underhounded library there he pulls out a tome. However I never thought I would be pulling the forbidden tome out not in my sake is this forbidden tome. He shakes his head his claws turn into a blueish hue almost turning blood red. Saieh Saieh Saieh ''THE WOLF'' Vampire father Wolf Goddess Mother. Hmmmmm? What is this? Saieh's Totem is upside down as well. Hades looks at me a broken collar at this state will require more than just alchemize like I did before in the past because taming him isn't easy. I need the jewel of the serpentine itself and a scale and a pluck of his fur. No ''Ordinary Serpentine'' won't do you see Child of the Moon. Hades takes me further down and he sets me down on a throne he has made me and he hands me staff. Rise! My fellow Magi! May the Shadows watch over you. For the darkest hours of awaking will arise.
Saieh's translation/Chapter/98760
Sister of the Moon? Why? I don't know myself anymore? What is wrong with me? There I see his crescent warrior axe stabbed in the deep forested grass. There I see him in his human form his feathers on his hair swaying in the wind. However I took a deeper look his collar was right beside the axe and I even notice his Wolven Totem was upside down. However as Saieh gazes across the sky he turns his eyes ice blue. Father what would you do? His eyes pulsate back towards faint crimson red Wolf Goddess? He collapses he shakes his head. I run over to him a giant serpentine hovers him. His jewels shine and his scales are so bright. I saw the fangs open. I run over and I hiss get away from my big brother!!!! Get away from my big brother now!!!! My eyes pulsate forest green. I pull out my Magi staff as that was bathed in the Underworld as well. Suddenly everything disappeared ''?'' Saieh wavelengths are snapping. Saieh gets up he turns his eyes ice blue again he opens his Wolven Pouch and takes out the Wolven Book. Saieh shakes his head and says would I do even something so disastrous? Would I even do this to Little Sister no I wouldn't. His arms turn into a crescent moon upside with a straight arrow going across. Little Sister. No No!!!! I run over holding him close clutching is pitch black fur. He looks over at me Little Sister I'm sorry but I....
The question is Saieh, Paradise you say? Do you think you and I will ever reach that desire? We've been trying for ages beyond the Moon itself. However in such as I look at him as I hold my Big Brother paws with a squeeze as I look into his crimson eyes you know Big Brother is all that's left now that matters now. In fact it's all I desire now I shake my head and I take his arm with a pull and he walks with me and we look into the dense fog of the forest with the moonlight between us you know about your Little Brother Saieh you were wondering about the Little Wolf you raised besides me? Do you think he will be waiting at Paradise? I'm sure we will find him there. We sit down on a log I lean on his shoulder and I look at him squeezes is fur with a slight tear as the Moon cries deep within my soul. He looks down at me you know Little Sister you are the Moon itself an embodiment of the Moon you and the Moon and the Wolves itself he takes me of his shoulder and he takes my paws and he starts to dance with me. You see Little Sister I never gave up on you or the missing Little Brother at all he twirls me around and he picks me up. Little Sister child of the Moon he grins and his eyes swirl of crimson with a slight shadowed grin. Suddenly he holds me close as a sense of dead coldness comes near as the trees sway with the shadows. Big Brother holds me close as he kneels down. Ah! What the f**k we both feel like collapsing and sinking our eyes start to get really heavy. I slowly fade from my brother's paw the last thought I had was of you and the love I've for you as I look at the Moon one more time before I slowly go into a deep sleep. However in a sense of long time my eyes open there I see my Big Brother in a semi dazed stated kneeling and his paws on his knees. I barely hear a whisper Little Sister? He barely tilts his head over and can barely make out a small Wolf Shadow. We both slowly look up there stood before us the Lunar One his 4 wings lowered looking at us. Paradise you say? Paradise where one can find the forbidden. Where all Wolves will run free with the Moon itself. Forever connected with the Moon itself. Where Paradise one soul can be at rest. He grins and shrugs as he barely lifts up his wings. You see the one of my Lunar Ones. That one that followed the Celestial itself. You embodied myself didn't' you guys? You guys tried to become rooted towards Paradise itself. He shakes his head you foolish Wolves he grins. What would Paradise mean to you? Lunar One gets closer towards us he picks up my Big Brother by the fur and looks up at him scanning him up and down. I see you aren't you? You the leader of Paradise? The one of the right of the throne. Heh I see your determination. You seek transmutation with the roots of Paradise as well. He sets my Big Brother next leaning towards me. He comes over to me with wings fully opened and he scoops me up. I see Child of the Moon not only that you're but you are the Paradise seeker the one that will set the Wolves free from torment and eternal suffering. You're the nourishment of Paradise itself. I also see as well you want beautiful wings like me? You always saw me as your full ultimate form didn't you not? You wanted to become me! However you're the left of the throne. Duel you and your Big Brother are. Come! He moves his wings rapidly and Big Brother was able to move. We see a forbidden pool. You want to do a little diving no? Now now now it's okay I will let you this time. Big Brother dives in the pool. I hear a slight howl. However before I enter the pool I sit down and I put my paws together and I pray. The Lunar One grunts and looks over at me. You never forget your duty do you Child of the Moon? He grins. Now enough praying. I join my Big Brother as I hold his paws and we curl together like a crescent moon shape. Everything slowly feels super dazed again. I try looking up I see a grin and I see blood dripping from the Lunar Pool as I see the Lunar One's arm bleeding. You see you two Wolves. You will find what you're looking soon enough! We slowly start sinking. The Lunar One walks over with blood slowly dripping on the Celestial Floor as he takes his arms and starts sucking his own blood. Ah the blood of the Celestial! Tasty! His arms heals. As the Lunar One heads over towards his throne and he looks over. Paradise? Will this point of time will you find Paradise? Suddenly everything felt a slight change a shift. We no longer feel like we're swimming in the Lunar Pool. I smell the forest and the Moon itself. Me and my Big Brother kick are Wolven Feet only feeling damp grass. We slowly open our eyes. Forest everywhere. The Moon is gigantic. There is a small pool in the middle. Wait what?! Big Brother stops for a second there we see a Little Wolf rooted from the roots of Paradise itself. The Little Wolf that saved me from drowning from a Serpentine only to have myself being bitten by the blood of the Serpentine itself. Oh well the Slayer did his job. He shakes his head. You see I kept Paradise alive for you two. He shakes his paws as the roots tighten around him. I know you would find Paradise one day. I knew you would. Look over there you two. We see two thrones one on the right and one on the left. Saieh takes the right of the Throne. As I Little Wolf sits in the left of the Throne. What will make of Paradise Little Sister? I noticed Little Sister feeling quite underneath the fur and she slowly slips from her Throne. Big Brother gets up and looks over at Little Brother Fenhi. Paradise? Poisonous Paradise? Will you be the one towards setting us free? Saieh comes over and picks me up and sets me in the small pool there I feel like I'm floating I feel free from everything. I shed a small tear. A tear from the scream of the Moon itself. I see myself floating with wings. Wings of salvation of the Wolves. I struggle getting my eyes open. I look at the Moon. Thank you for everything. Thank you for letting me feel Paradise. It's all I ever wanted with myself. One day Lunar One I will make Paradise a land of the Wolves. I promise! I won't forget my duty! I've always wanted this my eyes slowly start to fade thinking of him again. I try opening my eyes again. Lunar One if you ever need well not in fact need my own will or my own wings for the ultimate Paradise. Whatever I don't have nothing left now but Paradise. I.....I reach my Wolven arm out towards the Moon. I.........thank you......as I slowly fade away in a deep Lunar Coma. Thinking of you. Thinking of the rooted Paradise I shall create. This is the only way of life now. Thank you Lunar One..........
The Wolf has a question to ask, in fact quite a few. Even if such what is so? However in such was the way of the serpentine, in fact such a heart of the serpentine itself. Striking, venom and impulsive waves, but to ask oneself when will the serpentine ever stop chasing the wolf? Is your answer never? Will the wolf always snarl in defense? Will the wolf ever sit down? When does the wolf always stop hunting? How starved is a wolf? Do you know what it's like to feel like a wolf but in a fact in a not human shell? I'm sure you understand I'm Hell itself trying to live and a wolf living in a human world.
For people that knew me on Alt for awhile yes it's Tara yet again I always forget my profile this time I've updated new information keep in mind that I now have a boyfriend. Anyways there is a few people that were very good friends of mine and I finally decided towards coming back on and letting you know what has happened towards me this year. However mer so I'm forgetful and I forget coming on this site. Sadly I will not be giving out my cellphone on here unless I personally knew you from the past alt scene or if you're not some perverted freak. However mer so you would've to message me on either these websites and if you wonder why I don't wanna be on this website I've a boyfriend I don't plan on ever being on an alt website even though I met some good friends you can think my excuse is bad not wanting towards being on this website anymore but that's just my choice plain and simple. Anyways mer so that's why I came back on here for my final goodbyes and my new updated contacts
1. Crystalsistermoon@gmail.com
2. Runescape yes I plan RS and I simply don't care what you think it's Jagger Wolf
3. Vampirefreaks username is PrincessUlfMoon
Please let me know your username or I'll be like who is this anyways again if you see me not come on here I'm either moping my life away or spending time with my Son or with my boyfriend or dealing with this so unforgiveable life
