Cute, sweet, sad, broken gamer boy looking for a similar someone for a cuddle buddy/friend with benefits/more?
Heya, name's Gabriel. I'm painfully shy, inexperienced, way too nice, depressed, quiet, and lonely. I'm a writer for fun, INFJ, and lover of video games, fantasy, science, and animals. And all things dark, creepy, or evil. I'm difficult to offend and I'll go along with just about anything. I don't really care much for smoking or partying, or anything that involves more than a small group of people, but I'll tag along with you if you want!
Also I'm a Satanist. My version of Satanism is theistic, and rooted in a... Very strong dislike, let's say, of humanity. You don't have to share my beliefs, but you should probably be aware of them. While I long for the inevitable end of all existence, I am, hypocritically enough, a firm believer that since we're stuck here we might as well make the best of it and be kind to each other. We'll never make the world a good place, but it's nice to dream.
I want a girl who likes an occasional adventure, but mostly loves staying in, playing video games, petting cats, and is ok with not constantly conversing. I like goth girls. I think their outlandish and eerie beauty is captivating, and I hope to find someone with a mindset that matches my own dark and pessimistic outlook on the world. That being said, the goth aesthetic is not a must. Mostly I'm looking for someone who understands and appreciates my brooding and frequently sad demeanor, and who just wants to scrape together and cling to whatever meager happiness they can find in this world.
I'm not very experienced romantically... I'm terrified of relationships, really, and not even sure I'd be capable of cultivating one, but I still want something romance-adjacent, just not sure what or how... You may need to make the first move as even on good days I am scared and paralyzed by social anxiety. Honestly I'm kind of a coward sometimes, but not when it comes to conventional fears, I guess? I'll find the courage to deal with most things tangible, but I'll lie and withdraw and hide from conflict, drama, or responsibilities...
Maybe I don't sound very appealing all-in-all, but I prefer being direct and open about myself. I guess I'm hoping that someone out there will find me and either not mind all the negatives or even kind of like them for some reason. I need to find the Rinoa to my Squall.
