Friends only. Spiritual teachings/help as well
Even if this lost reality, is a mer delusion of mine, it's not only that,but feeling a lively solitude of peace and happiness, it's a nice change for once. However so, better than feeling a bladed vortex across inside your internal body, like an empty space in your internal core. Even if such, feeling such fuzziness, ooze and warmness I feel alive. A wolf wanting to feel alive? You might call me a sorrowful being, pitiful for wanting such desires but I can't seem to live this life anymore. Not such sorrowful but a howl of change and being wanted. I always wanted love but I always danced in the allusions of the shadows I was always stuck in the abyss, the abyss stage always carried a static that edge across me consuming who I really was, I kept dragging myself like a sick wolf across the abyss always struggling grasping anything I could for a sense of escape and some kind of reward for fighting onward. I seem to notice as a wolf when I'm in dire sickness the Lunar seems to bless me before my soul of a wolf breaks into nothing, O'' so I shall see the Lunar wants to keep torturing me to make sure I become in check with my senses to become a stronger wolf than I once was, self reflection of knowing happiness is here and it's not some faded reality of mine I can feel certainty of this happiness, you either keep going in this realm or you drown in the abyss and become the forgotten sun. O'' Lunar reflection wolf blood stains the crystal floor, the pool oozes wolf blood, O'' tainted one you once bore of yourself of the shadow will be erased, self based Lunar reflections, is this some kind of sick trick on the behalf of my own wolf self? Ah! I never want to lose this feeling of mine if this is some trickery so be this so, but I will see this love through out the end of time, I never want to lose you, more or so looking upon the Lunar itself you've blessed me, but you always bless me when I'm almost dead is this what will carry on? Without you go ahead and put me in a Lunar catalyst core and put me into a sweet coma, sing me the Lunar, hum to me put me into a deep sleep Lunar One, Put me into a coma were I will never wake up, go ahead and stab me with the Banisher blade I know one day I'll prob will deserve this, I desire so much and yet you see me as a family, you probably wouldn't even have the guts to properly put me into a Lunar coma, the Lunar humming it's almost like floating drowning deep in the Lunar Pool, at least my last thoughts will be of you, all I ask of you, Lunar one is please let me drown with the one I love, even if it's just for one moment, My paw against my lover, all I ever wanted even if it's meant slipping , fear haunts me. I know I'm a cursed being of the shadows, but whatever takes me, please let this be with you, the wolf cries into a sorrowful despair a howl that sounds like death O'' sweet death if you ever do come to me, please let me spend one more time with the love of my life, then Lunar One lull me into a deep slumber afterwards never waking up, the thought of you gone will be a frozen crystal catalyst core for me, O'' Lunar one please keep me going, I know I studied you and your kind, I followed your orders one by one, you took me into your pretty 4 wings, please grab me drown me into the moonlight if it's torture at least I can get rid of this shadow I once bore, just to see a new start of reality, even if so a Magi of myself I want a new chapter in my book library of my thoughts, flipping the pages madly I think of you so, and so I want to keep doing so, I walk onto the blood stained crystal floor my wolf self dragging slowly and as my body lays limp the thought of you always races through my mind, I see your face through the Lunar reflection. Finally, I will keep fighting for this journey no matter how or how hard the challenge is, but my life is with you, but if whatever happens, I will take the curse burden on me and suffocate myself in the sweet moonlight, if the Lunar wants me, at least my final wish will be always let me see you, life without you is meaningless, O'' Lunar one don't let me down, I stare into the Lunar Pool with tiny drops of wolf blood and stare on the the reflection of us, I never want that to go away, whatever happens I want that to be with you, even if it's one last loving embrace, you are all I ever wanted, you will be the last one I want to be with to see if this wolf ever does go into a Lunar Coma, O'' take my paw and please go with me wherever I go never let me go, even if it's drowning somewhere deep into the abyss at least my final moment will be with you, I will close this chapter in my book library mind of mine I've finally found you, thank you for giving me a chance at life once again, oh such sweet solitude.
Born of that in such of madness. I only know madness. I only know judgement within oneself. Dire yet so of wrong doings. For ''I'' the bird of the madness. Madness mirrored eyes to reflect on my own insanity. I know for this in fact which I've become. I no longer understand what it's like anymore not only for myself but in my own self as well. Oh ''Mother'' I left your nest I left your nest I left your nest. Child of the Moon. Did I create your insanity or in such fact matter did I or in fact am the insanity.....I puff my feathers like a voided feathers that's that the puppeteer string of madness you....ah mother....you felt home. Just like the dire ''Wolves'' you seek. However our insanity is like ''One'' one the holder of madness the one of judgement seeker of wrong doings. Hunter. Seeker. Watcher. Madness like I an Avian race myself Val....Valisker the olden one. Dire yet I seek madness. I'm sorry mother I'm sorry mother I left your nest not only in fact such. I ran because my poor dear feathers. I didn't want you to see me again just like Saieh did. I locked up myself up and my insanity as ''One'' I collapsed myself. I collapsed myself out of pure poor will of myself. I sat there ''Boned'' a chained insane Avian in a deep coma. My feathers shedding for you each time a Madness bore inside of you festering in eternal madness. However in fact my feathers starting glowing as a sign of pure deep rooted hatred but in a sense I stood for judgement. Do you remember when Saieh let me go? my limp wing arms fell. Fell and collapsed. Saieh picked me up and took me because mother oh mother you looked for me you called me back ''Home'' there I heard you curled up crying mother I....mother I....mother I..... I tried jumping back into you but you curled up even more screaming help me!!! Help me!!!! I tried knocking you out nope that failed. Not only did that fall because the puppeteer was crying as well. I took quite a holding from you. There I reached out towards you hunting seeking and judging again. I wanted to be back ''Home'' again. Dire. Dire. Dire. Home where everything began. Even with one madness itself.
To appear from what is lost towards given I don't know. Notice. Notice. Pain. Pain. Suffering. Suffering. Oh wait what are you talking about? I say with a forsaken grin. I'm imbued with all otherwise how would I live? I say with a sinister laugh how would I live? What are you talking about I fail towards understanding your desire and within oneself. You see I ripped apart many ''Tara's'' and made many more ''Anew'' each time a ''Tara'' failed I reprogrammed and made anew. A someone's dying wish no more in fact hypothermic state spirit it's only a will or a matter to try to salvage of what you can towards becoming ''Something'' else. Oh someone help me. Someone help me. However it's not that of a fact for a cry for help. It's you Saieh. I know I'm failing you big brother wolf. I know. I know. I know dying wolf yet so dire. So dire for alchemy So dire for murder. So dire for savageness. So dire for the Moon and Paradise. So dire for Hades. So dire and yet so weak only the Night's Tune will help us. Forsaken One. There I stood at the Celestial Door with nothing left but a ''hollowed body'' my head tilted sideways with my hair almost covering my eyes there slitting my eyes at the ''Lunar One'' I fall on my knees.I cried. I cried. Lunar One please. Lunar one please!!!! I curl up my limp wolf body in a remorse of help me!!!! Now now now forsaken one I got you. His four wings open up as he holds me close to me and he puts his claws on my face with a slight squeeze not hurting me. So cold and yet dire. Forsaken one. However so this is a new one isn't that so? He turns me to a tilt looking at my shoulder my bound symbol is even more potent now. My veins look toxic. The Lunar One squeezes me he tries to look away. His eyes turn a deep purple with a black slit I see a slight shed of a tear. His wings lower. I'm sorry that was unjustified of me. He takes me in another level in the ''Lunar Sphere' what is this? You never showed me this Lunar One why? Because....Because ''Dire'' I see a beautiful forested area with the Moon bright the Moonlight even burns my tainted wolf bones. The Lunar Ones drags his 4 wings on the floor and he folds them back in with ease. My eyes go into shock. There I see a ''Man'' tall and long black hair with piercing green eyes he gently sets me down on a throne and he looks at me. Forsaken One!!!! Attention!!!! I look at him he shows me alchemy scars all over his body he walks over to me you see I could never show you this because you would've ran from me and my path you see as well where the wing joint is he shows me 4 bound symbols each one is different. You became ultimate didn't you? You did everything to escape ''You'' Lunar One why? He sits right next to the shining Moonlight I see there absorbing the energy with his eyes slitting more into mirror pieces. There he clicks in his claws a sphere. Lifeless. Dire. Insanity. He sits up opening his four wings again. Forsaken One? His eyes in still mirrored pieces he comes over to me. ''Stay'' ''Stay'' ''Stay'' ''Stay'' poisonous one.
There, stood in my dream in a place other than here. Run Saieh Run Saieh Run Saieh. The pitch black Wolf of the night runs with the shadows, the sways of the tree. Madness. Madness. Desire. Desire. Wants Wants. Venom. Venom. Intoxicating Kingdom. You took everything from my sister. Almost everything. You bastards. There two bladed hunters. You really? Fools. Mer fools desire and so weak. You always were after my Sister and I. I ran as fast as my black paws would go. There I stopped I transformed. I screamed in agony. There I stood skeleton wings coming out of my back! Ah!!!! Sister no!!!! Big Brother's eyes flash bright ice blue. Large canine vamperic fangs. Big brother stood tall. The hunters stopped the tried to run run run run run from everything. With the speed of darkness there Saieh flew of the speed of the shadow. There I saw Saieh ultimate transformed. This is what you wanted to become is that so? You're are the poisonous one of the Paradise tree? There I stood watching looking over big brother his fangs oozed with black venom flowing blood red. There I noticed something paralyze paralyze. I will paralyze you just like my sister's heart was paralyzed you f**king fools. There I saw Saieh taking the two hunter's by their neck strangling them like pathetic dolls and sucking the life force out of them. No mercy. The old ways. The old forbidden ways. He flung them down. He turned facing me. Sister.... would you love me for the monster I'm? Would you love me in fact not such a monster but trying to become a final form for you. I want to be there when nobody will be. I look over at Saieh's wing's with a shed of crystal formation Saieh? His eyes turned back into Crimson red he falls down holding me!!!! Mother Wolf Goddess please!!!! Please speak to me!!!! There for one of the rare moments Saieh sheds the tear of the fallen sun. Fallen sun forsaken and forgotten dire and yet thirsty and thirsty for a change of a way of life. Forbidden. Lunar One. Wolf Goddess. Paradise. Thrones. Hades whatever damned path will take me so. Please let me have this path with you. I want to be with you. Know matter how dire or whatever is thrown our way we will fly!!!! Fly somewhere other than here!!!! There together we will find ''You''
The question is Saieh, Paradise you say? Do you think you and I will ever reach that desire? We've been trying for ages beyond the Moon itself. However in such as I look at him as I hold my Big Brother paws with a squeeze as I look into his crimson eyes you know Big Brother is all that's left now that matters now. In fact it's all I desire now I shake my head and I take his arm with a pull and he walks with me and we look into the dense fog of the forest with the moonlight between us you know about your Little Brother Saieh you were wondering about the Little Wolf you raised besides me? Do you think he will be waiting at Paradise? I'm sure we will find him there. We sit down on a log I lean on his shoulder and I look at him squeezes is fur with a slight tear as the Moon cries deep within my soul. He looks down at me you know Little Sister you are the Moon itself an embodiment of the Moon you and the Moon and the Wolves itself he takes me of his shoulder and he takes my paws and he starts to dance with me. You see Little Sister I never gave up on you or the missing Little Brother at all he twirls me around and he picks me up. Little Sister child of the Moon he grins and his eyes swirl of crimson with a slight shadowed grin. Suddenly he holds me close as a sense of dead coldness comes near as the trees sway with the shadows. Big Brother holds me close as he kneels down. Ah! What the f**k we both feel like collapsing and sinking our eyes start to get really heavy. I slowly fade from my brother's paw the last thought I had was of you and the love I've for you as I look at the Moon one more time before I slowly go into a deep sleep. However in a sense of long time my eyes open there I see my Big Brother in a semi dazed stated kneeling and his paws on his knees. I barely hear a whisper Little Sister? He barely tilts his head over and can barely make out a small Wolf Shadow. We both slowly look up there stood before us the Lunar One his 4 wings lowered looking at us. Paradise you say? Paradise where one can find the forbidden. Where all Wolves will run free with the Moon itself. Forever connected with the Moon itself. Where Paradise one soul can be at rest. He grins and shrugs as he barely lifts up his wings. You see the one of my Lunar Ones. That one that followed the Celestial itself. You embodied myself didn't' you guys? You guys tried to become rooted towards Paradise itself. He shakes his head you foolish Wolves he grins. What would Paradise mean to you? Lunar One gets closer towards us he picks up my Big Brother by the fur and looks up at him scanning him up and down. I see you aren't you? You the leader of Paradise? The one of the right of the throne. Heh I see your determination. You seek transmutation with the roots of Paradise as well. He sets my Big Brother next leaning towards me. He comes over to me with wings fully opened and he scoops me up. I see Child of the Moon not only that you're but you are the Paradise seeker the one that will set the Wolves free from torment and eternal suffering. You're the nourishment of Paradise itself. I also see as well you want beautiful wings like me? You always saw me as your full ultimate form didn't you not? You wanted to become me! However you're the left of the throne. Duel you and your Big Brother are. Come! He moves his wings rapidly and Big Brother was able to move. We see a forbidden pool. You want to do a little diving no? Now now now it's okay I will let you this time. Big Brother dives in the pool. I hear a slight howl. However before I enter the pool I sit down and I put my paws together and I pray. The Lunar One grunts and looks over at me. You never forget your duty do you Child of the Moon? He grins. Now enough praying. I join my Big Brother as I hold his paws and we curl together like a crescent moon shape. Everything slowly feels super dazed again. I try looking up I see a grin and I see blood dripping from the Lunar Pool as I see the Lunar One's arm bleeding. You see you two Wolves. You will find what you're looking soon enough! We slowly start sinking. The Lunar One walks over with blood slowly dripping on the Celestial Floor as he takes his arms and starts sucking his own blood. Ah the blood of the Celestial! Tasty! His arms heals. As the Lunar One heads over towards his throne and he looks over. Paradise? Will this point of time will you find Paradise? Suddenly everything felt a slight change a shift. We no longer feel like we're swimming in the Lunar Pool. I smell the forest and the Moon itself. Me and my Big Brother kick are Wolven Feet only feeling damp grass. We slowly open our eyes. Forest everywhere. The Moon is gigantic. There is a small pool in the middle. Wait what?! Big Brother stops for a second there we see a Little Wolf rooted from the roots of Paradise itself. The Little Wolf that saved me from drowning from a Serpentine only to have myself being bitten by the blood of the Serpentine itself. Oh well the Slayer did his job. He shakes his head. You see I kept Paradise alive for you two. He shakes his paws as the roots tighten around him. I know you would find Paradise one day. I knew you would. Look over there you two. We see two thrones one on the right and one on the left. Saieh takes the right of the Throne. As I Little Wolf sits in the left of the Throne. What will make of Paradise Little Sister? I noticed Little Sister feeling quite underneath the fur and she slowly slips from her Throne. Big Brother gets up and looks over at Little Brother Fenhi. Paradise? Poisonous Paradise? Will you be the one towards setting us free? Saieh comes over and picks me up and sets me in the small pool there I feel like I'm floating I feel free from everything. I shed a small tear. A tear from the scream of the Moon itself. I see myself floating with wings. Wings of salvation of the Wolves. I struggle getting my eyes open. I look at the Moon. Thank you for everything. Thank you for letting me feel Paradise. It's all I ever wanted with myself. One day Lunar One I will make Paradise a land of the Wolves. I promise! I won't forget my duty! I've always wanted this my eyes slowly start to fade thinking of him again. I try opening my eyes again. Lunar One if you ever need well not in fact need my own will or my own wings for the ultimate Paradise. Whatever I don't have nothing left now but Paradise. I.....I reach my Wolven arm out towards the Moon. I.........thank you......as I slowly fade away in a deep Lunar Coma. Thinking of you. Thinking of the rooted Paradise I shall create. This is the only way of life now. Thank you Lunar One..........
