not gonna come on for awhile but that's okay, if you're wondering if I've my eyes set on someone, heh....obviousNow the question I ask is, could you ever love a wolf? Could you love someone that follows the moon when that's the only way of life? Heh
O'' dear abyss, a solace for me, somewhere in between where I can find death in sweet solitude. We the sounds of suicide and the
mer tune of nothing. However you were the forgotten sun all along. It's a place as a wolf I know whenever I feel toward spiral of nothing I can throw myself in the abyss limp wolf body and all, curled up embraced by the shadow. Even if such I reach my paw up and drag my limp body as a wolf I seek a sense of escape, an escape of nothing, something of self worth. There in the forgotten sun my throne, O'' brother of a wolf Saieh, find me a divine serpent, bring me the chalice of the forgotten, bring be back the blood of the divine for I shall reign. Brought by you the divine jeweled serpent the chalice swirling in a pool of divine blood, I slowly drink the venom, ah sweet paralysis to feel this power again, the sorceress awakes, chalice of the forgotten falls, I lay my wolf limbs all limb over the throne, split forsaken eyes, the watcher of the shadows, for the divine serpent is my power. You brother laying next to my throne a fellow follower of the abyss yourself, we will take over the forgotten sun just you and I. One day we will fully escape but not the divine power, no not exactly but for what was the thrill of the hunt without the moon and the abyss itself and even the serpent without that we're nothing. Slowly I look into the swirling suicide spirits all over the abyss as I lay wolf limp mode on my throne, oh what a solace, is this emptiness? It's this my own Wolven way of seeing things, here I pull out the shadow wolf magician book, close to me on my throne holding such so dear, why won't you take me so on the darkest alchemy road? Oh I see, markings of the abyss, foolish one, dire and yet such you seek a sweet solace of death in your reign
Running with the wolves has always been my family and you can't take that away from me
Sleep deprived as well as I don't care about food much anymore and thinking about my own existence
Likes
My library mindset of mine. Sometimes I can be harsh but I don't seem to be, sometimes it's all a misunderstanding but I promise you I'm a nice creature and understanding. Mysterious. Odd. Unusual. Likes to make jokes. Likes laughing and sometimes I laugh at my own mind sometimes. I highly believe in judgement. Likes Sleep. Likes darkness. Likes blankets. Likes jamming out a lot. Listening to peoples problems. Putting myself last. Putting myself last in and caring about people fist. Animals are better than some people. Mom but am not planing anymore. I've an obsession for stuff animals. I also like collecting Nintendo or Star Wars products and sometimes display them on my wall. Stars. Moonlight. Lunar. Alchemy. Nature. Purity. Wolves. Feeding the Cloud Magi Winged People my favorite maggot treats. I used to be a big eater not anymore. Void also means stomach. I used to be a big RPG player not so much anymore, probably not in the mood but I can go for a nice survival game and SH 2 was the s**t just saying. Also crystal shiny things are nice. I'm 5'2 and 82 or 86 pounds for people wondering. Really pale skin. I dye my hair and my hair used to be natural dirty blond but I will never and for nobody will go back to blond. I also like concerts. I also like Tarantulas. Frogs. I'm a huge animal lover just saying. I'm often being a lump like log most days. Anything else? Ask me questions because I suck at telling about myself. Also one final thing before I close this chapter if you can understand my sorrowful no not that my darkest part of my psyche in my mind, you and I will probably get along great. I'm also very spiritual. Okay that's that then
O'' divine serpentine....coil around my body....strike me with your venom..O'' sweet divine for the sorceress, chalices of serpentine blood, the divinity of the serpent flows within my Woven blood, how divine this power is
The ropes all over my hands and my arms tightly thinking all these dark sadden thoughts of suicide.....and the screams of suicide........I sit there and listen to you death....it's the only sleep I get- Oh play me a sad tune, so called the night, play me something sorrowful On the hollow edge of the tree, I sit here holding a noose, look at all these branches.... Here everything smells dead, rotten, even the flowers. I clinch the noose tighter O'' sweet Night go ahead play me a sad tune, so sorrowful full of suicide One noose after each noose on the branch O'' what a sweet melody I don't know I can take life anymore. The melody plays in a deep sadden tune There I see myself hanged, the melody of death. The sway of the rotten flower pedals slice me all over Ah sweet suicide, the hollow tree O'' Night
Oh the Cloud Magis, ever standing so high into the sky looking over at everything staying high in the mountains. You see the ocean, the tides and the bringer of storm. Your bodies love water and ever so graceful your beautiful crystal wings each of you have, reaching out of the water your body and wings shine with such pure grace. I always have wondered about your kind, wouldn't you like to spread your beautiful wings in the ocean and just close your eyes, listen to the storm and adrift somewhere else? Or is that part of my mind telling me, you're already drowning other than here. Despite this you guys love your maggot treats I give you which makes me really happy that you do.
Even if this lost reality, is a mer delusion of mine, it's not only that,but feeling a lively solitude of peace and happiness, it's a nice change for once. However so, better than feeling a bladed vortex across inside your internal body, like an empty space in your internal core. Even if such, feeling such fuzziness, ooze and warmness I feel alive. A wolf wanting to feel alive? You might call me a sorrowful being, pitiful for wanting such desires but I can't seem to live this life anymore. Not such sorrowful but a howl of change and being wanted. I always wanted love but I always danced in the allusions of the shadows I was always stuck in the abyss, the abyss stage always carried a static that edge across me consuming who I really was, I kept dragging myself like a sick wolf across the abyss always struggling grasping anything I could for a sense of escape and some kind of reward for fighting onward. I seem to notice as a wolf when I'm in dire sickness the Lunar seems to bless me before my soul of a wolf breaks into nothing, O'' so I shall see the Lunar wants to keep torturing me to make sure I become in check with my senses to become a stronger wolf than I once was, self reflection of knowing happiness is here and it's not some faded reality of mine I can feel certainty of this happiness, you either keep going in this realm or you drown in the abyss and become the forgotten sun. O'' Lunar reflection wolf blood stains the crystal floor, the pool oozes wolf blood, O'' tainted one you once bore of yourself of the shadow will be erased, self based Lunar reflections, is this some kind of sick trick on the behalf of my own wolf self? Ah! I never want to lose this feeling of mine if this is some trickery so be this so, but I will see this love through out the end of time, I never want to lose you, more or so looking upon the Lunar itself you've blessed me, but you always bless me when I'm almost dead is this what will carry on? Without you go ahead and put me in a Lunar catalyst core and put me into a sweet coma, sing me the Lunar, hum to me put me into a deep sleep Lunar One, Put me into a coma were I will never wake up, go ahead and stab me with the Banisher blade I know one day I'll prob will deserve this, I desire so much and yet you see me as a family, you probably wouldn't even have the guts to properly put me into a Lunar coma, the Lunar humming it's almost like floating drowning deep in the Lunar Pool, at least my last thoughts will be of you, all I ask of you, Lunar one is please let me drown with the one I love, even if it's just for one moment, My paw against my lover, all I ever wanted even if it's meant slipping , fear haunts me. I know I'm a cursed being of the shadows, but whatever takes me, please let this be with you, the wolf cries into a sorrowful despair a howl that sounds like death O'' sweet death if you ever do come to me, please let me spend one more time with the love of my life, then Lunar One lull me into a deep slumber afterwards never waking up, the thought of you gone will be a frozen crystal catalyst core for me, O'' Lunar one please keep me going, I know I studied you and your kind, I followed your orders one by one, you took me into your pretty 4 wings, please grab me drown me into the moonlight if it's torture at least I can get rid of this shadow I once bore, just to see a new start of reality, even if so a Magi of myself I want a new chapter in my book library of my thoughts, flipping the pages madly I think of you so, and so I want to keep doing so, I walk onto the blood stained crystal floor my wolf self dragging slowly and as my body lays limp the thought of you always races through my mind, I see your face through the Lunar reflection. Finally, I will keep fighting for this journey no matter how or how hard the challenge is, but my life is with you, but if whatever happens, I will take the curse burden on me and suffocate myself in the sweet moonlight, if the Lunar wants me, at least my final wish will be always let me see you, life without you is meaningless, O'' Lunar one don't let me down, I stare into the Lunar Pool with tiny drops of wolf blood and stare on the the reflection of us, I never want that to go away, whatever happens I want that to be with you, even if it's one last loving embrace, you are all I ever wanted, you will be the last one I want to be with to see if this wolf ever does go into a Lunar Coma, O'' take my paw and please go with me wherever I go never let me go, even if it's drowning somewhere deep into the abyss at least my final moment will be with you, I will close this chapter in my book library mind of mine I've finally found you, thank you for giving me a chance at life once again, oh such sweet solitude
Saieh's chapter, this book I pull out the dark alchemy the shadow wolf Saieh you are my lovely brother. For what am I? For what am with the Shadows? ''I'm the shadows itself. I come from a burnt lost village. We were the small wolven people. I was the fire dancer and I was the weapon dancer, what was the thrill of the hunt without the moon? What is the hunt? The thrill of fresh caught dinner so yummy but in the darker hour I love my Serpentine Blood. I was weak, I couldn't protect our village but the best thing is I hated my f**king elders!!! f**k you! f**k you elders I hate you all!! Traitors!!! So then the Cursed Wolf Book was past along with me I carried the book for the longest time finally I decided to sit on a wooden old bench I opened the book there it was the alchemy the lost forgotten alchemy and moon alchemy as well and the darkest arts of the shadows. I studied the arts of the shadows and here I'm the abyss creature you knew I would become and abyss creature just like my sister you branded her and I!!! Hell's Sake!!!! I slipped the book in my wolf pouch and never to be pulled out again I set the wolf pouch on my altar next to my throne. Then one day I saw you sister wounded and hurt. Whatever heartless feelings I had, something inside of me said ''I see something special in you''' so I took you in and raised you like one of my own and underneath my fur I raised you but then I really do regret if training you in the shadow arts was a good idea but my reflection of my wolven eyes tell me other wise we're just cursed beings of the abyss but the thought of that never stops crossing my mind. You were a Little Spark, your thirst in the Mystic Arts reminded me in my olden ways, you were such a fast learner. It's funny once I think about this the Shadow Wolf Warrior and the Shadow Wolf Magician but that's just obvious. O'' Lunar one the sway of the trees the sway of the shadows the sway of the trees for what am I without the shadows? What am I without the moon? I hate you element wind and I always will. for ''I'' the shadow wolf. O'' Lunar one please guide us me and my sister, drown us if you must to get rid of the shadow we once bore. Sister I will always protect you
Dislikes
I dislike a lot of things and maybe even myself. However why don't you ask why I dislike a lot of things or what do I hate the most? Go ahead and ask away
Favorite Music
Varies of Metal also depends on what mood I'm into or what I feel like listening, so I can't really pinpoint on what I wanna listen to or set into one thing I like to listen to so yeah there.
