I'm honestly just here because I'm so tired of being worthless and alone, and it hurts. I've spent the better part of the last decade not being a person, and now that I've had a stroke and am forced to treat myself better, my hatred of forced existence for the sake of being a tool is unbearable.
I... I just hope to be worth someone's time and effort. If I'm stuck being a tool, I'd at least like to belong to someone whose ideals I share. Even if it's purely for the sake of you being able to say "See? I have a boyfriend, and he's really nice! Now get off my back!"
I just want to go back to having value. It's almost been a full year since my stroke, and... It''s just so intolerable to sit around all day and being a waste of... everything.
Sorry If you put yourself through this b.s. of mine. I just want to be honest, and have to fake everything all the time. I do that enough as it is. It gets tiring after so long.
Oh, and I have no pictures because I have no computer or cellphone or anything. I'm just doing this on my WiiU. Sorry abut that.
Regardless, I hope your day is well, and take care.
