FORBIDDENLOVE

Well I'm actually 14, I'll be 15 in 4months. I'm shy and mainly quiet unless I am really warm up to you. I love music it is my life. I like to write poetry and songs and draw and i also love lying on top of my roof or the soft grass and watch the sunset or stars..just to escape from everything around me you know.I'm very low self-esteem about myself and it very hard for me to trust since I've been mistreated/abandon/stabbed n the back/ etc..etc by those who i was closest to and in relationship when the guy cheated on me or abused me and treated me like dirt...I'm willing to give love another try, though I'm afraid, but if my heart gets broken again it will never mend and i would block love and anybody who try to love me from life like i did once before...so long ago..I mainly would love a guy that sweet, funny, carny, can be romantic, and fun to be around. Someone who would just hold me and whisper sweet nothings into my ear, someone who i can not only be my boyfriend but my best friend. Someone who i can trust and would treat me right instead like s**t. Someone I can go to..someone..just someone ....someone who would love me for me. I know it a little to much to ask for but hopefully one day that special someone...my prince angel..my guardian angel would come rescue me from this place call hell, well i feel nothing but hate and misery from those who treat me like crap around me....just hopefully..he would come...